HUIJING

2012-02-11T09:19:00.001-08:00

12Feb. 12:58am. It's 11Feb today, but it passed midnight already.
Hi readers. <3 How are you people? Im missing many people and friends. Working again recently. Very tired nowadays. Lie on bed, awhile later, sleep already.
Many things happened everyday. Too much to say. But I love the people who are there and the people around me. <3 I love catching up w people. It's been so long since I do handmade stuff and write letters already. I made myself believe again and I did it again. I hope they like it even though it was really simple. x.x
Time passed, things change. Ya. I totally agree in this. Have faith? Im trying too. It's okay to make mistake, but it's never okay to repeat. And so Idw to repeat my mistake. Idw to disappoint people. :/ I hope I can managed this forever. x.x Really.
2Weeks. It's going be tough. But I hope nothing will happen much this 2Weeks and hope im fine. I will miss you. Take good care. <3 it's really weird without you here. ): I feel so sad right now already. Sigh. Hope I will be fine.

If I trust you, please don't ever break my trust.
I love those people. <3

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Family,

2012-01-30T08:45:00.001-08:00

31Jan. 12:30am.
Family,

Hihi people! Im back. These few days was really tiring and sad for me and my family I guess. x.x Ahgong passed away. Was at wake all night for all the days. Sleepless nights, not enough sleep and tears.
And these few days really show who really care at home. And the relatives and friends that came down straight away and everyday. Hearing news that he passed away,and rushing home and seeing him there was really heart breaking w sister, family and even maid crying was heart breaking too. I tear a little that day and on Sunday. ): Seriously, it was never nice. Because my other cousins don't feel how my father mother sister me and maid feel. Because we stayed w him for years in the same roof. The feeling is different, it was heart breaking. We may not be close, but staying tgt builds feelings in us.
Uncles Aunties and relative crying on Sunday was really sad. )': never had such sleepless night for so long already.
Uncles aunties not having enough money to pay things. x.x money issue. Uncle being the biggest son only know how talk and ask other do things. He himself don't do. Seriously it pissed me off. He is sad. So. He is not the only one sad can. Everyone felt sad and was carry a heavy heart but we continue helping out and doing our things. Arghhh, irritating.
Nvm. I hope my father and my family to be fine and happy. That's all.
I felt so much. And yes, those point of time, you really needed someone to be there. I guess maybe I felt so much even though I wasn't really close to my gonggong because this is my first time. And I really felt it inside. The tears that could never use anything to describe.

Yes, People come and go.

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2012-01-27T10:25:00.001-08:00

28Jan. 1:58am
你好. Yes it's a new year yea. Happy Chinese New Year lovelies! <3 But for me, there is no more 新年快乐. x.x Currently at my ahgong's wake now. And I here by want to thanks the few.people who came down and visit me. <3 Really appreciate this okay. And those who gave me Bai Jing. Hweeling, Junquan and Emille. Thankyouverymuch eh. <3 And the rest who took the effort to cook for me, S S Y. And those who came down. Jiayu Hweeling Junquan Emille. Yea. I didn't told much people. It's okay. And Thankyou those who text me and stuff. Im fine Thankyou. (:
New Year had been fine. And I heard this year, Pig are not bad. Hahaa. Shall see about it. It's a new year, so a new start right? Yea. I get it. And I will do it. Shall believe in it. Shall take everything slowly to see how it goes.

Oh yea. Im glad I have some of my lovely friends okay. Especially some of them okay. It's been great w them around. Hehee. (': Because this is why life seem worthwhile to me. (:
Alright. I hope everyone are fine and everyone life get well ahead.
Take care people. Shall try update as much as I can. (:

I will forget the past. I will learn from my mistake and NEVER do it again. I will smile. I will control. I will try to stop being lazy at least. And at least I will try to be better.

I wish for a better life this year. Better in everything. Because this time I will work hard, I will make sure things and pass the things inside me this time. Because this time I want things to be right.

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2012-01-22T10:10:00.001-08:00

23Jan2012. 2am.
Hihi. Firstly, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! <3 Yay, its new year. ~ Angbao coming in. And Ofcos, reunion dinner!!! <3 I love this, and I love family gathering much too. ~
Alright days had been up and down due to my bloody mind la hor. But I hope it start fine. Because Idw to be sad either. So yea. Hope everyone stay happy and BE HAPPY! :D

I hope this is a good year. I hope every year gets better for me and everyone.
I hope everyone stay healthy, pretty and happy! Be it studies or work, hope everything will be well for everyone.
I hope people are true. I hope you are true. I hope for a real one.
Let's just smile. ~ (: at least I know my lovely girlfs are true to me. <3 I'm living in past fear, I'm sorry.

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2012-01-17T08:07:00.000-08:00

18Jan2012. 12:18am.
Hi lovelies. <3 Hehee. Im still here, in malaysia. Hahaa. Today is fine i think. Managed to go out in the afternoon, and i got to buy 2 pants! YAYYYY. Happy me. :D Tomorrow got Pasa Malam! YAYYY, more happy. So more things to buy. :D tmr night dont rain la hor. So i can shop and buy things. :D Hehee. Shall see if i can get anything for people. (:
Alright, this shall be a short post okay. Will update more hehee. :D
I love my girlfriends and freinds okay. <3 They are the best. :D

I need to live it. Grab it. Dump it. Face it. Cherish it.

2012-01-16T08:06:00.000-08:00

17Jan. 12:07am.

Hihi. Its 16Jan today. But its just pass midnight ah. And currently Huijing is at her Malaysia house now, KL. :D I watched tv the whole evening, cooking shows. HAHAA. Because i got nothing to do. HAHAA. :p But it entertain me for so long, cool~ (: Hahaa. And tmr morning eating dim sum! :D YAYYYY. I love the food here. :D Im going get fat. x.x Hahaa. And my uncle is being so nice to help me persuade my mother to let me come over w my friends. i shall go plan it and ask again :P Hope i can, because i really want to try. :D I bet it will be fun lor! :D

And im currently webcam-ing w Yy. :D Cool, she is funny and nice. :D

ANDAND, i felt so touched. All of my girlfriends misses me on the first day. Hahaa! Haven even 24h, they miss me liao. :p AWWWW, I LOVE DIE THEM! <3 They are the reasons and why i think life is worthwhile. :D And ofcos, the person who did the photo album for me for no reason. OKAY CAN, Huijing is so touched! :D Please know that. Really thankyou. Yes you are the one that brings a smile on my face when i was reading and looking at it. Maybe because you are the first who do all those for me ba. Thats why. (: But im really happy. :D

Okayokay. Shall update more okay. :D Im loving my blog. And loving my friends. :D IM LOOKING FORWARD TO CHINESE NEW YEAR!! Dinner w family, dinner w friends, out w people. <3 i like! :D And i will forget about the past, which doesnt matter anymore and make my year a better year. :D

Loveyou people. <3 Thanks for reading. :D

Lets all BELIEVE. Have a little faith in everything. <3

2012-01-13T07:58:00.000-08:00

13Jan2012. 11:59pm.

Hi Lovelies. <3 Hehee. Its been great alright. Yes i hope i am getting better. Days had been fine i guess. Work until tired, go home, just wash up and rest early, and the cycle continue. Hahaa. But i did find time for myself to enjoy and chill ah. :D So going get some money for myself. :p hehee. But i NEED CONTROL MYSELF too. Hahaa. :x I hope i can. (:

Alright. Working this sat sun. And going oversea on Monday. Back to Malaysia. I swear, many memories will come back again. x.x I hope i will be fine ah. But i like going back. :D Out from this world, this country for awhile its good. (:

Ohya, i subitted my courses too. it was a hard choice to decide on where to go. but whatever i get, i hope i enjoy it. (: Gold bless. And hope veryone get into the course they want. (:

Alright. Shall get going and be back soon.

P.S Huijing really really want this year to be a better year for me. x.x too much things last year, too much misunerstandings and dramas. Yes, i myself wants to travel, to fall in love ( the right one. :/ ) and most of all, TO BE HAPPY. think everyone also wants all these right? Hope everyone get what they want. And Takecare people. <3 Will miss people when im gone.

2012-01-10T08:21:00.000-08:00

11Jan. 12:22am.

It's 10Jan today. But ya. I'm blogging because I need somewhere to release everything. I'm really feeling very not okay right now. )': my heart felt so heavy. There is no tears right now, but I feel very uncomfortable. :/

I'm sorry daddy mummy. I know I'm a let down. I know it's my fault I didn't work hard. I did for some subjects only, and I even gave up on some, when I shouldn't. I'm sorry, I am really am. I didn't know I will score this well. If I knew, I would have really really studied hard for it and not fail my English too. Yes, this time I regretted not studying. Or else I will have more choice, and I wouldn't waste time and money again too. I'm sorry..

Yes, I need change my attitude seriously. :/ I need stop being so lazy. And work hard on my studies, becaue I could do better, but I didn't. Okay maybe for others, my score wasn't very good, but to me, it was good enough when I didn't work hard.

Huijing, please wake up and starting changing to be a better person. And stop being lazy.

But I would like to thanks God for giving such a good results, for me la. It was good enough, really. I guess I'm lucky, really lucky already. And I should stop taking all this for granted and really work hard towards what I want.

I hope 2012 will be a better year for me and everyone. I'm grateful. (':

2012-01-03T06:52:00.000-08:00

3Jan2012. 11:o5pm.
HI PEOPLE. <3 Hehee. Its a NEW YEAR. :D YAYYYYY, Its a NEW YEAR, NEW START, NEW BEGINNING. Yes, no matter what, im looking forward to this year. Everything will start again, start a new.
Alright, results is coming out next week. Honestly, im not prepared this time. Even though i will say i dont deserve being lucky and having the grades i want again. But seriously, this time round im really scared. x.x Even though my Chinese is not good, and i know i wont score well, when i was waiting getting my Chinese result, I SWEAR I SWEAR, i scared until like dk what. :/
HAHAA. Okayokay, its time to prepare myself for the worst. x.x
Okayokay. Dont talk about it. Yes, its a new year. :D I hope everyone will have a better year this year. And for everyone to be happier and everyone life better. (: SMILE PEOPLE. And yes, i hope all my secondary school friends and friends, all the best in everything they do ah. Because we might not meet that much anymore. ): Goodluck everyone. :D
Okayokay, working a lot of days straight, is very very crazy okay! HAHAA, at times i feel really tired. Hahaa. Cause lack of sleep. But i can say its been a great time working in all this different jobs. HAHAA. i macham in need of money, until i work so many different jobs, hahaa. :xx But i made a lot of friends, from different places and different ages and different kind of people. :D
Its been a great time, great experiences. :D
Okayokay, enough. Bye readers. I will come back soon and blog. :D Anyway, thankyou for reading. :D

2011,
Its been a year. A year to remember. A year to learn, a year that make me grow and learn. And the people who came, and the people who got close, and the people who left. They are part of me, and i will always remember that.
Reflect from the previous and learn from our mistake and change for the better when the new year come. :D And dont ever make the same mistake ever again. And i will make sure i wont make the same mistake ever again. And i really really want to forget my mistake 2 years ago.
Okayokay, God bless. Takecare everyone. (:

Last But not least, the part shall be for beloved love. <3 HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE. I love you ttm okay. I hope you had a wonderful day. Please meet up soon, i really do miss you much. ): See you! <3 Sorry for the late one, i try sending, but you know. So ya. So SOrry. Hope you didnt mind. Take care love. <3 Anything you could always look for me okay? :D I will never forget you. :D

2011-12-29T10:16:00.000-08:00

30Dec. 2:19am.

Hi People. :D Yay, Im back here. A year just gone by so quickly this year. And tmr will be our last day of 2011. And the start of 2012 is coming. :D Yes, im looking forward. Looking forward for a new start, a new year ahead. (:

Its been a great year. Okay, not that great. But great enough for me, to learn many things from the different people around me. From people not getting what they want, and starting to twist words around to other people, and from people changing so fast from one side to another, me taking things for granted at times. :/ And many more. Its been a year. Full of ups & downs. But still, a year to learn. :D

Im grateful to everyone. Who was in my life before, who is still in my life, and who are coming into my life. Because no matter which one you fall into, you still plays a part in my life. To let me learn the different things in life and grow up from it. And to those who leave footsteps in my life, i wont forget them, WONT. I learnt my lessons from all of it too. And yes, i got that into me. People COME and GO. And the past is the history. I and everyone of us should not waste our life anymore. And enjoy it. :D Its not going be easy, but its going to be worthwhile and w the people around you, you will get through everything. <3

But this year end. Its going be different. Because i could rmb exactly what happened for the past 2 years count down. x.x I will end my year well. :D Hope everyone of you do too. Lets just welcome a NEW year, everything a new. (:

2011-12-22T06:34:00.000-08:00

22Dec. 10:40pm.
Hihi! :D Yes finally im back to blog. Oh i seriously do miss here. :D I doubt many people use and read blog now. I had a GREAT time yesterday at USS w awesome people! <3 Look at those prettyy and crazy pictures. Hahaa. Pictures shall talk for me. :P There's many pictures in facebook, feel free to take a look at it. :D These memories are some memories that will stay in people life for a long time. (: Pictures will stay forever.
And do love those girls in my life, <3
Ohyea CHRISTMAS is coming~ Hahaa. And im spendind it at work w the girl who say she want spend w me, but i told her idw. :x HAHAHAA. But its okay, i need those money. :x
And Ofcos NewYear is coming, its going be a new year soon. Everything shall start again, NEW. And ofcos i rmb how i spent my last and last last NewYearEve. x.x Shall just wish this year will be different. A good one.
This is random. I like presents. <3 Shall use my present soon. <3 just keep those photos. :D Hehee. Will blog again soon. (:

I hope everyone have a great Christmas this year! :D

2011-12-12T06:46:00.000-08:00

12Dec. 11pm.
HI LOVELIES. <3 Omg, its been so long since i blog. x.x So sorry for the dead blog okay. had been busy w my chalet, things and work. x.x And ofcos enjoying life w my awesome friends. <3
REALLY, from the bottom of my heart. THANKYOU VERY MUCH to every single one who wished me and remember my birthday. And A BIG THANKYOU to the people below to take their time out for me, to come down for my birthday/chalet. AND THANKYOUVERYMUCH for all the surprises! And presents. <3<3 w lots of loves okay. Thankyoou every single one i swear. This 16 birthday was the memorable one okay. And those speech. OKAY, i am so touched. x.x Was melting okay. Hahahaa. :D Thankyou a million for all those efforts. <3 Words couldnt say how much it meant to me. I will never forget these days, these friends. <3
Okayokay. Life had been fine and fun at times! Im having a good holiday here okay. Working like crazy at times, but w people around, its all fine. (: Thankyou everyone, thankyou people for being there. Im sorry if i have not been a good friend or whatever. Hope you all understand and forgive me. Hehee. :D Thankyou. And ofcos to people who wished me, call me, and in whatever ways to wish me and stuff, thankyou so much too! Appreciate much. <3
THANKYOU EVERYONE. <3
New year is coming, Christmas is coming! :D Hahaa. Hope verything gets better for everyone. :D Lets just have a little faith in everything. That little faith may just change things. (:

Thankyou these people and one more person who is not inside but came. <3

w lots of love,

2011-11-24T08:46:00.001-08:00

24Nov.

Hihi people! Im back. Hehee. Back from Malaysia. It was a memorable trip I guess. Hahaa. Who ask me and Shirleen got into trouble until like that . Hahaa. :x but overall, ya it was nice. (: sorry people, im too lazy to tag people, shall do it when im free, hope it's soon. :x Hahaa.

Okayokay. Days are fine I guess. W awesome people around. (:

Kind of looking forward to next week.(': hehee. Hope it's nice for everyone too. And I hope they don't get so stressed up over it. x.x Things will be fine uh. (: I will believe. (:

2Dec and 3Dec. :D

Hehee. Okayokay. I need work! Even though it's tiring at,times, but I still want. I need save money to buy my own laptop. Like seriously. Arghhh. Huijing need buck up and go to work. :/ hope I get to save up by end of year. Pray hard. x.x

Okayokay. Thankyou everyone for everything. Everyone around me, the effort they did for me and the memories they created for me. I appreciate everything and will remember them. <3

Hweeling, trexie, hengwei, Michael, shirleen, yunyue, zihan, Ali, syed, zion, calvin, weizheng, guohui, nawfel, effie. Thankyou. <3 love you all. :D

I don't need any presents, seriously. Having to see all of you happy will do. (:

I will believe again. (: Don't disappoint me.

You don't matter anymore, I don't care anymore.

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2011-11-18T07:32:00.000-08:00

18Nov. 11:59pm.

Hihihi People. :D Yea, im back. Hehee, because i want update here before i go oversea tmr eh. Going msia, KL for 4days 3 nights. w my beloved band people. :x HAHAAA. I hope it will be a good time. Anyway i have Shirleen and Karina around in the same room and same group. :D Shall enjoy ourselves. Hehee. :D Making all these worth while. (:

Hahaa, spending my days w my awesome friends, is serious great. <3 I LIKE.

And i worked 2 days~ Okay first day was TIRING MAX, lose name tag, bought new one again, then Emille tell me she found mine. Wth to myself please. :/ Waste my money only sia. Forget it. Second day was fine. HAHAAA, did enjoyed work! HAHAA, joke. But ya, i dont mind working there, learn any things and see many different people. I like ANGMO, they are so much friendlier and nicer, and i like to work w those friendly people ~ HAHAA. Shall just continue working there? Maybe ba. Hahaa.

Okayokay, i will stay strong. This is life. I will make it through. Life is too short to be sad over things for long. Im over and done w it long ago. It doesnt matter anymore, and this time im serious.

Alright, i will miss people here. Take care my dear friends. <3 Stay strong and SMILE. :D

I hope everything is real.

2011-11-12T08:18:00.000-08:00

12Nov. 2:08am. Its past midnight okay. So its kind of 13nov now.
HI PEOPLE. :D Okay i just realised one more day to O level Science MCQ. HUIJING PLEASE FREAKING GO STUDY.
Okay tmr Uncle coming to Singapore, that mean no need study liao.
Today wasnt good, i mean it was great w them ofcos. But thinking too much isnt good for me. So ya, wasnt okay for awhile. But good thing is i got myself back. :D Because without seeing and knowing all those things, im so fine without that bloody person that made me so sad yesterday night. But just because those tweet, i failed badly la hor. Forget it. I will get on with it, and over w it. I MEAN IT. Sorry people okay. x.x Just couldnt take it. But i swear i will be fine.
Okayokay, 11NOV was nice w H T S E E W H. :D 12Nov was nice w H W H S. :D Okay, i love them okay. <3 Thankyou for everything, thankyou for trying to create new memories for me, And ofcos that was justa nother date already. Because everyday spent w those awesome people is special and i will remember it. <3
Okayokay. Thankyou lovely people. :D Happy 11 11 11 yesterday. :D
AND GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE ON LAST FEW PAPERS.
P.S, i hope everyone is happy and have theat smile on their faces. And may god bless everyone and protect everyone. :D
Goodnight, shall talk awhile more and go have some rest.

I will stay strong. To protect myself from those things. And BELIEVE. :D
I made my choices, im responsible to it. I chose to leave, people chose to leave too, i respect it, i face it already.
:D SMILE.~

2011-11-08T08:04:00.000-08:00

8Nov.

it past 12 already. Yay, this is my 400thnposts, cool much. Hahaa.. But who cares. Hahaa. Whole week no exam, feel so good only. (Y) Hahaa. Studied physic today. :p

P.s sorry people who were looking for me today. I kind of off my phone the whole day until at night I on it back again. So ya. Feel so proud of myself for doing that. :x hahaa. And so sorry to people that I made you all worried. x.x Thanks for understanding.

Okay okay, this few weeks ya. Idk how say but ya. Hahaa. O level was stressed much at some point of times. But I'm almost done already, I don't except much for my results, because I know I didn't gave my all for it. So ya, just hope for the best will do. Last paper is McQueen for comb science, shall try to study to at least pull some grades up, hahaa.

Many things happened this year, made me tear, made me smile, made me learnt many things too. And most of all, made me stronger. Yes, I'm here today, like finally. I would also like to say this to the people around. Thank you very much, you all play a very important role in my life, even though things happened, and things changed. I'm still grateful yo. And I swear I didn't forget anyone of them till ow. Believe it or not is your choice. And what kind of person I am, is up to you to think too. I won't say anything if you still think I'm like this. And to others, thanks for believing in me and staying w me through out. I'm really grateful for everything. I'm sorry, I know, I feel it, but I just do how show. Just thankyouverymuch to everyone out there, especially some. <3

Shall find myself back soon. (:

Shall go running at my house here on Thursday before meeting some people. (:

2011-10-16T07:27:00.000-07:00

16Oct.
HOHOHOO. Its OCTOBER MID ALREADY. Okay, this is really fast.
Shall REALLY start studying, before its really too late. x.x Because i kind of already think its too late. :x But nvm, shall still try.
TODAY is E BIRTHDAY. <3 Hope she had a good time. Okay, from yesterday till end of this month, so many people birthday~ Need wish so many people. But its ok. :D Hope everyone have a great month~
Going out w her tmr. :D Cool much. And meeting S Z for lunch i think? Then school. Then movie w S? Then bbq w people at the there. x.x And back to study w S A ?
HAHAAA. What a day. And Tues staying over at the guy hs w Y. Awkward much. BUt for the sake of it, shall just not be shy and stuff. Hope its worth it. Thursday O LEVEL ! OHMY, Fast much. Alright, shall not talk much.
Last week was err ya. Idk, many things ah. E stay over my house? Didnt go school on Thursday? Wednesday Graduation? Friday last day, report book? Even when K again. :x Ya, thats about it. YES I NEED TO STOP PLAYING AND GET DOWN TO SERIOUS BUSNIESS BEFORE I REGRET. x.x
Goodbye~ And, yay i bought new phone. White again. OMG, PRETTYYY TMMTC. In love w it. :D And my eye is one big one small, very pain. ): Hope it gets better tmr. And hope my dearest freind, first day of work tmr, for wedding i think, will go well. :D

Oh yes, i was so disappointed and pissed and etc, this whole week. But who cares. Its over. Thanks those two-faced people for making me dont care. Not worth my time. Because i believe in karma for those people. :D

Alright, last but not least, FAMILY OUTING! Yesterday night. Even though its just a night spent tgt. Im more than happy. <3 This is one of the group photo. Still got one more w everyone inside! AND yesterday, everyone was present! :D Oh i love it. <3 Shall post that photo up when i get it~
P.S I didnt know Singapore have such prettyy scence at night. Yesterday was a pretty night~:D

2011-10-12T08:20:00.000-07:00

12Oct. Graduation Day.
Hihi people. Shall blog a little more for today, even though Im currently feeling not well. But nvm. Many things going through for today. Today graduation was alright I guess. Didnt felt much, cause there is still school. But I am not going tmr. Zi ya. :x Nvm, will go school on Friday. And amazingly 4e1 got the top performing class award. Cool much. 300 dollar. Another chalet. :D Nice holiday I will be having after O's. Dont ask me if I am looking forward, because idk. :x
Alright. Today was awful. Feeling so unwell. Nvm. Hope I get better~
Bartley may not be the school I want. But for the ass 4 years, it made me learn a lot. Like really a lot. So ya. I might be happy w this school, but these little things are the one that I will remembered for a long time. Time passed, many things happened. This 4 years, I will never forget.
Okay. Now I know what is the only thing that I regret in life. The mistake I once made. A mistake that change things till now. :/ I swear only if I was smart enough to not make that mistake and things might be so much better now. ): how I wish I didnt did that. Ahhhh. Forget it. I almost forgotten, but he had to remind me and say me. ): Im sorry. But please believe that I learnt my mistake already and know what to do already and that I am really trying to be the person you want me to become. I hope I am a better person towards you.
I made mistakes, I learnt. IAMNOTGOINGTOREPEATITAGAIN. Yes huijing, its time to really grow more up. But I hope he see that Im changing and growing so much more.
And it also time for me to move on in life, to another chapter in my life. Because it doesnt matter to people anymore, why should I still care.
Alright . Goodnight lovely~ Shall go rest to study alone tmr in the library or what. Take care people.~

2011-10-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

SMILE. Just be happy.

10Oct. 10:29pm.
YOHOOO. Its 10 October already. Time is passing in a blink of an eye. SO FAST. Yes, i had to admit, im freaking stress now. Because i know i didnt do enough preparation. Oh well, i hope i really can. Because this bloody feeling here suck ttmttc. Okay, Thats all.
Many things are happening around. I see so many different people. Is it me, or is everyone changing too? Its okay, i know i changed too.
I think its just me ba. People seem to be so weird and stuff. I dont recognise them. Yes, dont judge someone because of one mistake. Because everyone made mistakes. Forgive & Forget, But never forget what it taught us.
Shall get off here soon and go to rest. TIRED.TIRED. Sleeping is good, you wont think. :D Hahaaa.

You, Are you really like this? Come to us, when you needed something? And ignore us when we ask you or talk to you? And when you made new people, where are your old ones? Forgotten? Seriously, you hurt so many people without your knowing. That we treated you as our goodfriend, and actually you are like this.
Im sorry. I rather not have a friend like this. Its sad to know that your goodfriend is like this.

So many things happened. And O's is here. I cant be bothered la.
Fyi, you three all my goodfriends, it suck being there. Forget it.
I will just go w the flow for now. Enough of trying so hard, thinking of solutions to solve this and that. Time to slow things down and take a break from all this. :D
At some point of time, everyone of us make mistakes, mistakes that are big and small. We regret. But we learn and learn to not repeat it again.
And its true everyone change. So did i.
Its our life, we are old enough to make our own decisions now, and be responsible to it.

Omg, im hearing so many things EVERYWHERE, about so many different things and different people. zxczxzxczx.
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE. :D Tmr will be a beautiful day, Huijing. :D

PS. Thankyou to people who made me feel loved. <3

2011-10-06T05:52:00.000-07:00

6Oct. 9:05pm.
Hihi PEOPLE. :D Oh well, so many things happened.
Okay, i got nothing to blog. :x WOW. First time. I think because i posted something somewhere else, and yarh, im feeling so much better. :D Okay, its a bloody long essay there. :x
Who cares. Okay, N level is finishing. This implies that O Level is starting. Still, shall wish them Goodluck for those who was having their last paper tmr or mon~
And left w O's. in 18days, to complete 6 subjects. Wow. Thats tough. Nvm, shall not give up. And find my mood. :D Yes, i will make it through.
To those people who keep going around saying people, making people all depress and shooting people w their weakness. Seriously, just shut up la. You wont like it if someone do the same to you right and not like you dont have your weakness and flaws.
Okay, enough of com. Need.Get.Off.Here. or else i wont study again. x.x

You know what. Towards you you you you. I still wish you all, all the best in whatever things. Because i cant bring myself to hate/dislike or anything. Yes i admit, because i still care. I hope all of you are fine. :D

2011-09-30T08:51:00.000-07:00

I will smile, No matter what.

30Sep. 11:53pm.
HIHI lovelies~ <3 Im back.:p Hehee. Okay, i should not, but yarh. Okay, i will work hard again tmr. :D Because i am forcing myself to wake up for tmr Poa lesson in the morning. Yes i am going, on my own will. How great. Shall wait for sister to come home and go to sleep after that. Because my freaking back is failing me BADLY. Its so FREAKING PAINFUL. :C SERIOUSLY PAINFUL TTM. :/ I hope it gets better soon. Its killing me.
Okayokay. Its OCTOBER TODAY. Because its 12 already. My wish is that i hope October will be a better month ahead~ <3 Yours sincerely, Me.
Alright, Im going off soon. Take care world.~
2days till N level. 23days till O level papers. OKAY, HUIJING LOOK AT THE TIME. Ohh i hope i could sit down and study and dont regret again.
Okayokay. Goodnight people. :D Hope its a good day ahead for all of you.~

2011-09-28T07:10:00.000-07:00

28Sep. 10:14pm.
Hi my beloved readers. <3 Hehee. I kind of studied everyday after school since school starts. KIND OF. Hahaa, hopefully i can keep myself up w this till end of O's. If i seriously can, i think i will improve right? :/ Hope so ba. x.x
OKAY, Here is goes. PRELIM 2 results~ Want know what? Ask me, i will tell you all of them. Shall not say here. Got back everything. Ohgosh, its like shyt! SUX BIG BIG TIME. x.x Better than Prelim 1, but i kind of studied some of them, but yes, see. ARGHHH. Nvm. OKAY, YONG HUI JING SHALL NOT LOSE HOPE AND GIVE UP. Ahhh, almost tear in school today. But forget it, manage to it hold back. Nvm, I will make it rhough! Shall BELIEVE.
Alright, My back seriously hurt like zczxczxczxc ttmttc. I cant move too much, or else it will pain. Fml. So painful, cant move. -.- Shall hope after eating medicine it work. :/ OHYA, my sucker phone lasted me for an hour journey home ride~ Apparently it left 3% when i first got on to the bus and start playing my music, and it lasted me throughout the one hour and make it home w alive phone~ HAHAHAA. It rock sometimes. :D And yarh, went J8 to find S E S. :D They are funny manxz. Laugh like dk what. And took 59 home. Went pass many places.
Okayokay, i shall read through my Geo and go to sleep. Cannot stand it, feel so tired and my back is really so zxczx. Ohya, i wont be blogging much, i guess. Will use tumblr or here. So yarh. :p
Okay, GOODNIGHT people. Rest well okay. Tmr is a better day. :D Never lose hope. :D

2011-09-26T07:16:00.000-07:00

I will always believe. That little light keep me going.

26Sep. 10:31pm. [ Warning, beware of long post ahead. ]
Hi People. Yes, i wont be able to blog like this anymore. ): Sad, but its okay, just mean that lesser post, and no picture. But yarh, i will still try to post. My sister is coming back tmr ~ Hahaa, wonder how is she and what she bought back. :p Do i miss her? Maybe. :p HEHEEE. :D
Okay, YOHOOO, Today is the first day of school. RESULTS FOR PRELIM 2 IS BACK. Okay, ony got back Comb Sci, Ss and Emaths P1. Okay, not good at all. :/ KInf od disappointed in maths and chem for today. Shall see Geo and Poa tmr. :/ More gg. Geo please dont disappoint me, seriously. :/ Because i seriously sat down and studied you. I hope. OHYA, say bye to my A1 for emaths. Ah, kill me. ): SAD ttmtttc. Nvm. I just hope i will get my A1 in O's, really hope.
Okay, Today T came over my house. :D And studied. Kind of. Tmr we going Airport! :D T3 i think. Subway~ :p

STUDY.STUDY.STUDY. Yes date books Huijing. Hmm, i think when i shower~ Weird me. :x Hehee. So yarh. I said i wont talk here, so i wont. Yes, i may be still not over. But i will keep pushing myself to make it through. Its been tough for me, but i believe i will get over one day right? If this is how long i am going to take, then so be it. Yes, i get sad and stuff. But i will be back how i was again, hopefully soon. Oh, this time, when im typing this, i could really say, im fine.
I dont regret anything in my life i think. x.x because i did what i can. I did try. I learnt my lessons, and learn to not repeat it. And i dont regret anything. Because whatever it is, it made me learn something out from it. So yes. (:

Okay, EVERONE seem to be studying. Ah shyt, i feel bad and super weird here. x.x Except that i know that J not studying. But yarh, still yarh. x.x Shall start again tmr or later or something? :x
Aiyo, can anyone push me or force me to study. SHYT manxz, where is the me that keep pushing myself to study. Need find myself back. ONE MONTH. YES BLOODY ONE MONTH AND ITS OVER. CAN DE CAN DE! (Y) GOODLUCK EVERYONE. JIAYOU JIAYOU. Fighting~! :D All the best everyone~.

Nan NiGa Jaeil JwoAh.

2011-09-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

Memories are the only thing left to kill people inside out.

25Sep. 11:10pm. Such familiar numbers.
TAKE NOTE : DOnt read, if you are not prepared to get bored of mypost, cause its bloody wordy and long.~
Oh well. Hi readers. :D This will be like my last few posts. Yes because OLevel is nearing in less than 1 month time. And i shall cut down internet time. Hopefully. x.x Oh yes, IM SCARED. Worried for myself for not doing anything still.. :/Nvm, shall start from tmr! And School offically starts tmr too. Mean left w 3 weeks of school and 1 week of study break. Thinking about it just make me feel worse. Nvm, Tmr will get back results right? Hope so. And hope i am doing okay. x.x Oh well, hope everyone is studying for exam. ~

Im curious. Why do people just pop out from our mind, randomly? And follow by memories that was w them. And then we smile for a moment. And then come a frown. Especially to those little things. Maybe to me, those little things mean more, and stays in me. Oh well, i doubt those people remember as much as i do.
I am stuck here again. I want to break free. Idw to tear for you again. I have so many plenty of questions inside me. Oh, i should just shutup and suck it up. I hope by the time IF we talk again, i forget all my questions. Because im afraid to idk what. :x Could i say everything to you here? NO, nvm. I ever wonder why do you read my blog and idk what. I guess you read others too, then you drop by just to take a look or something, or even when you bored, then you dropped by. I guess so. Enough. Enough of you in my blog right? Because you are happy w your life now. I will smile and say just fine. (: I wish this is the last time i am going write about you. I doubt so much that i run through your mind as often as how much you run through my mind. So i should STOP, and take a step back, and hold on to my tears. And leave. I might be still not over yet, but my mind is clear i guess. AH, Enough of you. I hope to continue to see that smile of yours whenever i got to see you. P.S, that person i am refering to, should know, i guess. :x

HAHAAA. Okayokay. DONE. EXAM EXAM. Next chapter of this book of mine, is called, STUDY TIME. And enjoying my last few weeks in Bartley Sec. [ Even though i dotn like this school. :x ] But yea, i still manage to SURVIVE throught these years~ HAHAHAA. And made at least SOME great friends that i will NEVER forget. And my classes made me study. Im grateful.
Oh well, its been one hour, and i haven post this bloody post. How great can i get. People talk to me on fb, msn, oovoo. And i just hang a phone call.
Okay, i hope everyone will feel better, so that all wont be so sad anymore. Because its sad to see your freinds sad.

LASTLY, I am touched to people who even bother to read my WHOLE post, which is so bloody wordy, and its about my life. And people read. Im very touched okay. Thankyouverymuch. Do tell me if you are my reader okay. :p
Rest well people. Take care. I will sleep soon after talking to people. I hope. :x Since tmr got school. x.x GOODNIGHT. :D have a good rest people.~

2011-09-24T08:27:00.000-07:00

You know what? My life goes on, even when you chose to leave.

24Sep 11:29pm.
Hi readers~ :D I made a wish today, and i saw 11:11 today. Oh well. Nonsense me. Nvm. :x
Today was awesome much. Out w TT. <3 Another person that i enjoyed talking to. She is good. She taught me many things, without her knowing. :p Things made us feel the same and stronger. :D Hope we keep in contacts after O's! :D
And our studying date is productive.~ At least we did some AMATHS. Rather then us staying home, not doing anything. x.x MsGoy should see this. Because both of us chose to practice Amaths. Oh well, but we talked a lot too. :p Hehee. Once again catching up.~ <3
Alright, then i went home early today. Okay, IS SUPER EARLY. But its okay. Just felt like it. So yarh.

Okay, Im off~ SCHOOL REOPEN SOON. :C Shall adapt to school aagin. :D Since sagittarius is good at adapting. Shall see how. Maybe planning w T to have study date EVERYDAY from next week onwards and maybe calling some 4Ns along. Hope that we are able to make them study at least a bit and also for us to study. x.x

Oh well, im feeling awful these few days alright. Im sorry everyone. I will be fine, promise. :D SOON.
And, Please dont come back to me and tell me you still like/love me. I am not a toy. Dont come back when you feel like it, and leave again when you feel like it. I am not a second choice. Dont just use words on me. It dont work anymore.
Just make it clear. You either stay or leave alright? Thankyou. (:

2011-09-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

23Sep. 11:12pm.
Readers. <3 I am currently so tired. Whole body tired like zxcz. Once again i am having a headache. Shall not blog for long, lazy and tired. :/
Okay, today was great okay. (Y) Jiayu Hweeling Shirleen. <3 And my craving for cycle is done by them~ :D
Okay, i am really tired. Shall not sleep late tonight. Webcam awhile later~ Then im off to sleep. TMr plan shall see how. Cant be bothered w people. Hate to plan things. Wonder why i chose to plan. Forget it.
Oh well, shall think good thoughts or try help others to make myself better.

I wonder why do i like you, like a fool? Wonder why i cant do and be the same like how i used to others. I really wonder how long more. Its been quite awhile since i ....

Takecare people~ <3 Loves.

2011-09-22T10:11:00.000-07:00

I need to wake myself up again.
You made me stronger.

Okay, reporting time now, 1:12am.
Just hanged my phone w A. Okay, i hope i can hang out w him soon. Hahaa, he is a great friend to talk to. :D And hope he dont think so low of himself. I believe in my friends~
AND YARH, I kind of hate and love today. So ya. I hate it cause so many things is happening. I see friends being sad, make me feel not good too. Wishing you could help them, but you know you cant do much at all, but only lend a listening ear and be there if they need someone. I am really grateful towards all of my friends. Like seriously. For everything.
I really hope all of them will be fine~ Like seriously. Dear God, please bless and protect everyone of them.
And i love today, because i got to catch up w quite a few people today. Seriously, i LOVE to be able to catch up w people. You know whats wrong, you share things. Its really great. You felt the true freindship between you and your friends. It really felt good again. <3
I would like to thanks them for trusting me too. Im happy to have a friend like all of you~ :D

Just now was, CO A HL NS YY ST BT JY. It was really great. Thats all i think.
A, on top. Shall send a message to you later.
CO, I swear seeing you sad, really make me feel not good at all. I hope you will get better, really.
HL, thanks for being there everytime. And hope you will be fine soon too~
NS & BT, Ohwell, i miss hanging w you all! And i miss talking w you two too! Hang out soon~
YY, i hope you realise.
ST, i hope you dont fall badly again. Because i hate seeing you sad as well.
JY, LDY~ Thanks for coming over and catching up. Having the same feeling when we talked and shared~ :D

Lets just do things that we want, and so, at the end of the day, we wont regret. :D
I hope everyone get better~ :D

2011-09-22T05:22:00.000-07:00

22Sep. 8:26pm.
Hi readers. :D I am here again. (: Today was nice~ Practical was ya. Just see result on Monday ba~ Then stay in AVA for 4 FREAKING HOURS. OMG, I AM FREAKING COLD INSIDE. I felt like a ice inside okay! Omg, cold until dk what! :/
Then out w S M N . SEOUL GARDEN. :D Awesome~ I like hanging out w them. (: I enjoyed my time~ Then i took bus home~ I like. :D
Yes. Less than one month to O's. :c ITS SO FAST. STUDY STUDY. And this is the last week of school for the na people. Ohh, i will really miss my friends there~ Shall go hang out w them this sat. Hopefully can. :D
And there are two ASSHOLES at my house now. SUCH AN ASSHOLE THEY ARE. Come my house, together shoot me and say me. Wa, sad life sia me. ): Provoke me. Sad.:x
Goodbye readers. Hope i can cycle tmr~ And dear sky, please dont cry. :p

Oh yes. There is many things running through my mind these few days.
Firstly, I dont understand why do people CHOSE to walk out of my life physically, but still care about me.Then why do they leave. :/
Secondly, hj concidentally saw that smile on someone face. And i know you are happy w life now, from that smile of yours. And im happy. Even though its not me, but seeing that smile again was good. And yes, Its okay. Because you made me know what is the true feeling. Because, you made me felt this, that i never felt before. Thanks. The best just isnt me. (: Im fine w it.~
Lastly, this last thing had been in my brain for a very long time. And yes, i saw that you are happy. Im glad you are all back happy again. Really. And we are fine all over again, not that close anymore. But yes, im happy enough w all this now. Continue being fine alright. Because you made me know what is a true friendship. I treasure someone like you a lot, and never will i forgot you.

Every door that is closed, is another door open. Just look for that another door that is open up to you. Every chapter end, is another beginning of a new chapter. :D

2011-09-21T04:27:00.000-07:00

Edit-ed.

Lets smile together.

Stitch~ :D

21Sep. 11:17pm.
Dear readers. Today was idk what. :x School for an hour. And went to return book and eat w people~ And im homed. Okay, its weird. But yarh. Then J came. <3 Ohh, i love talking to her. She came to my house to find me. :D Yea, had a wonderful time. :D Talk talk talk.~
And blablablaa. And now webcam-ing w J ! <3 and on the phone w some people too. OKAY. Many thoughts in my mind. Okay~ I will miss 4Ns people. Tmr will be kind of the last day i see them. Only if i see them tmr. :x So yarh. GOODLUCK TO THEM. :D
Tmr is my awesome freind birthday. Hope he had a good time. SEOUL GARDEN TMR~ :D
Okay. This is for S. I know what you are feeling. Oh, it kill me seeing you sad too. Cheer up kays ~ I hope you will be fine soon. Loveyou. Anything you know i will always be here for you kays. Smile tgt kays? We will be fine. :D
P.S. I hope Smiles make people feel better~
AND ANYONE WANT CYCLE ON FRIDAY~? Leave me a msg. (:

Did anyone saw the background of the picture on top? Its a stitch. I doubt many people do. Because i think everyone will be just reading the words of the picture and not noticing other things. Is this how life is? People will always look at the outside, and never notice the inside. I guess so. Its okay, Let it be. What meant to be wil turn out just fine. And The inner beauty of people will be seen.~

2011-09-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

I love hug. :D

20Sep. 9:06pm.
I just got home from Aiport to send my sister off to KOREAAA~~ Ohh, im jealous die. :c She got to go oversea to so many countries SO MUCH. Nvm, shall travel when i grow up! :D HAHAAA, her com is here w ME for just a week. Buts its enough. Anyway, obviously i will miss that idiot sister of mine~ Hehehee. :D
Okay, slept about 2+ last night, woke up quite late. :x HEHEHEE. Then went to buy food and BUBBLETEA. :D The weather is SO NICE~. Then Blablaa, Idk what happened too. TIme just pass like that! :x Then bathe, out to parkway awhile, then fetch Mummy, then AIRPORT~. Eat, talk, and BYE. And here i am, HOME. :D And in front of the com. :p
Oh well, i didnt study for tmr MCQ. Whatever. Cant be bother. :/ Sorry Science. x.x
OHHHMYYYYY, ONE MONTH. AND Its the start of HELL. Like seriously, its so freaking fast. And Iswear i am scared. :/ Oh well, feeling likekilling myself for being scaredand not doing anything. Hopeless, need get the study mood back soon~ Like REAL SOON. One month is so little~~ ): AHHHH, Everyone GOODLUCK & JIAYOU KAYS. N level is in 2 weeks & O level is in 1 month~ GG. Lets all study hard~ :D
P.S. I like to thanks my friend ML~ For pei-ing these few days and going zxcz w me out of no where. HAHAHAA. :P Thanks a lot, and thanks for being there. Lets have our Mac soon~ :D
And to my another friend. I hope you read this. We aint talking. But i will try to smile at you tmr. (:

I wonder if you would ever find someone like this. Dont forget.

2011-09-19T02:25:00.000-07:00

19Sep. 5:37pm.
Hi Readers. :D Such a tiring day, because of last night. Only got to slept at 3+. Was dragging myself out of bed this morning to get to school, just to buy the photos.~ Then ofcos was heading out w S. <3 In the end, M was w us too. Got them to eat in school w me. :D Idk why, but many things was in mind when i sat in school and when im in school. It was likerunning in my mind. But nvm.
So in the end ate in school. :p Then took bloody long time to decide on where to go. In the end went Kallang Leisure Park~ Then slack at Starbacks~ :D Then saw someone. Yes i know you read too, I know you care too. Im grateful for everything. To even be close to you before. And having to be able to sit down w you like how we used to. You are someone that came into my life, but will never leave in me.
Alright, im really tired. Need some sleep now.
P.S Huijing want to cycle so much! ): Anyone interested?

I miss many people.~ I promise to those people out there. That was part of me and that is still in my life.
I promise to be here. Only if you reach out and turn to me. And i promise that i will try my best to be there for you 24/7.

I told myself, i will smile to you, one day. I want it normal. Seriously, i dont mind helping you. Because i feel good seeing people improve. (:

2011-09-18T00:05:00.000-07:00

Guide everyone out from the darkness.

18Sep. 1:52pm.

Hihi, Yes i have been blogging almost everyday recently. Because i have self break for myself these few days. :x So shall sepnd time for my blog. :D Oh sorry, Last week was a zxczxcz please, that's why i need a break from all the dramas and tiredness. :P Hope this week will be a better week. Hope it will be a better year, till it end. :x Yes, will get back on track soon, i hope. x.x

Woke up early today. Cant sleep. So fetch Sister to work w Daddy. Then home, then to IKEA Tampines.~ WOHOO, 15 people there, Family gather? :D Kind of, except my sister not there. :c Then stayed, talked, walked, go pasir ris fishing there and played kart rider. :D And homed. Oh, i really LOVE such outing w my family. And those adults are so lame! No wonder, cousins and us are lame at times too. :x HAHAHAAA. But im heading out soon again. :P Ohya, got to talk to my love today. Ah, miss her. Will hang out w her soon i hope, before i get down to business again. x.x Alright, thankyou readers for reading. I will blog more. :P Shall, stop here for now.

It had been tough. For me and everyone. But everyone is still trying get through the things they are facing. Hope we can.

Oh yes, My beloved Shirleen. I feel zxc, you should know what am i saying. And i know you read my blog. :P <3 Wonder how you get through. Everything seem to be coming back. Nvm, tmr. <3

Beautiful memories is flashing in front of me now. I seem to take away all the unhappiness and negative memories already. Oh, i miss it and i love it and i treasure it.

This is to you, i think you will read my blog when you cool down already. If never then its okay. We are tired. Idk whats between us to cause all this. I really dk. But you dk you hurt me w your words on fb and stuff too. Yes im sorry for replying like this. Nvm, nothing left to say. But yarh, its my fault then. But nvm, after all. i cant be bother to rmb all our unhappy things, because i hate it and its so much. So i dont blame you, or even going to the extend of hating you. So yarh, thanks for the past few months. I appreciate a lot and is really grateful to know you and be close w you. Maybe we are similiar in some ways that make us dont go well tgt. Im sorry for everything. And thankyou for everything. But i will rmb the words you said, Fcuk off. Thanks. Okay, i got many things i could say to you. But these few days, i had become so speechless towards you. Its sad to know this is happening. But you cant change the reality. So yes, i got it. take care. Bye. Jiayou and Goodluck for exam. :D I will still rmb you.

I will smile, evening its breaking. Miss being a kid. When little things just make us so happy.

2011-09-17T02:49:00.000-07:00

Live our life the way we want it to be.
Live it to the fullest.

17Sep. 5:58pm.
Alright, look at the time. Its going be night soon. And im heading out like soon. I need some Chocolate or Icecream. Shall buy it after dinner.
Okay, had been talking the whole day. Sleeping. :p Day dreaming. Stare again, at dk what too. :x Hahaa. Okayokay, tmr ikea breakfast please dont be cancel. I want go as a family. Nvm, just hope. Okay. Shall have a good time w People later. :D

When we fall, we stand. ~
Thankyou to all my beloved readers out there kays. I am really grateful to people who always come by and read my posts, even those its so long and its all about my life. Thankyouverymuch. :D Hope you all have a wonderful day. :D

Okay, you didnt reply. So i guess thats it. So i shall not go on to you. Or else so weird to sent you another text when you dw reply. So ya, shall type here, if you never read, then its okay. I want to say Goodluck for Your N level too kays, which is like near. You keep say want go ahem, but honestly i think you can make it la. Because i know you do work hard at times. So study hard ah! :D
Im more than shocked to know you read here. But thanks. I appreciate that.I dont regret knowing you. Okay, takecare. Be happy, Enjoy your life. Enjoy how it is suppose to be. Thats the way. (:

Afternoon. & Heading out.
SMILE.~

2011-09-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

Time pass, people change. Memories stays, inside us.

Because i remember the great memories i had w you, till now. (:

16Sep. 11:11pm. :D
Alright Hihihi~ Beware, if you are not prepare to read a dragging and LONG post, you may not read. (:
Here it goes. I miss blogging so much this week. Ohh, i just LOVE my blog. :D Hehee. Okay. I had a BUSY & SUPER TIRING week. But i still love this week, w all my friends around me. Because i got to see all of them and hang out w them at least that bit. Tricia. Abigail. Shirleen. Hweeling. Michael. Nawfel. Keith. Clavance. Jasmine. Jiayu. Okay and many more.~ Oh well, i really enjoy my time w my friends. Even if its just a short while. Sunday out K H J E. :D Monday H S, Geography & EMaths P1. Okay, Finally over w geo was like Shiok. (Y). Finally done w memorising. Tuesday, M R G, Studying science. Emaths P2 was ): . I hope i get A, really hope. :/ Amaths P1 was :'c. Wednesday, Amaths P2 & Chem. maths was hard please. :/ Chem is okay i hope. x.x Then w G M R again~ Science again. Thursday, English & Phy. Aiyarh, i just hope i can make it. w A Y C. :D Then w A alone. :P Nice. After such a long time. (Y) And today, Friday. POA P! & P2. OHH, POA SUCK BIGBIG TIME. I cant balance anything at all. ); Oh shall not think about. Today Hj is w S. <3 AND I WOULD LIKE TO THANKS MY DEAREST FRIEND M, forhelping so much in Science ! Thankyouverymuch okay. I will try do my best and score well in CombSci. :D
Many things happened this week despite the PRELIM going on~ But Yea, everyone is pulling through and making it through. Fighting~!
One more week to go till Prelim ends~ and DatingOfBooks START. Last 1 month plus to go! OMG, LOOK I SWEAR ITS NEAR LIKE DK WHAT! Ohh, shall stop saying and start doing something soon. :/ JIAYOU JIAYOU TO EVERYONE. And, i am aware N level is in start of Oct. Thats even near ! :/Ohgosh, all this major exam is scaring the hell out of people.
Its okay. People, we shall work hard for this 2 months! :D ( Okay its less than 2 months okay. :c ) But, just lets work hard for these days together.~ Its going be tough but our effort will pay off! :D
Goodnight people. I take century to do this blog post. :x because im multi tasking ~ Because its 1:56am now. And i had a short nap just now, just to last till now. Because i have such a week, like what i said at the top, i need some rest to cover back my nights. Will be back. :D

Life suck at times. Shyt happened. But no matter what, Our life dont stop, because it wont, it dont stop and wait for us. So what for stop because things happened? Yes, it tough to get through at times, but its not impossible.
Everyone of us have our different stories behind the scene. Stories that we kept deep down inside, stories that see from the outside view. Everyone have their own to say. Dont judge and see someone from their outside. Because you never know what are the stories behind them that made them who they are today.
At times we see people wrongly, and eventually we saw people true colours over time. But some friends, are friends that we dont mind their flaws , we ignore those part, and CHOSE to be close to them. But some day, we realise, some are not worth it. But some are. And eve though, PEOPLE COME AND GO. But you will never forget them, because they were part of you.
Dont hate someone. Dont waste your energy. What for? Not like hating someone will bring any benefits to you? Yes forgive and forget. But never forget what they/it taught you.
Yes, today i learnt some things. I saw how fast people changed. And realise we are the director of our mind, we can change our thinking and our mind. So lets change all the negative mind set to positive. :D

Oh you? A little more to go. :D
Idk if i regret. But kind of got to read a few msges by you in my phone. It is saved in my sim card. So yarh. i stop by and read. Wow, its on 1 Nov i think. and now. Look at the different, look at how much things changed.
But i got it. Im fine w it. I dont hate you or what. But i guess my wishes towards you, never changed. So yarh. Because i know deep down inside i still care. Hope you are doing well. (: And take care of your health, i rmb. :D Goodluck.

2011-09-10T07:23:00.000-07:00

You can count on me like 1 2 3, i'll be there.
And i know when i need it, i can count on you like 4 3 2, you'll be there.
<3

2011-09-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

10Sep.
What a week. It seem long and also short at the same time. But its okay, who cares. And its over. So yarh. Prelim will continue on Monday and for the next two weeks. Goodluck to everyone.
Alright, i shall continue w my studying of Geography. It had been really long since i sat down in front of a table and do notes and really studied for it. It can of feel good that you know you really put your heart and studied for it. So i am kind of ready for the result i am going to get as long as we put in our effort there. :D Hope everyone push themselves for these last 3 months; our last run before we could really take a long break. JIAYOU.
And Smile People. Because i smile to make myself feel better. Hope it work to you all too. :D

I thought you change. Oh well, i thought wrongly again. And now, i dont give a damn. Whatever. Im done.
Ohya,i miss my friend too. Kind of. But i miss the nice one, the one that i thought he is or he was. Are you really like this ? Or should i wait, and let time show me? Maybe i should. Oh well, i hope you are not. No matter what you are my friend, but we still have many disagreement. And some things i just dont agree to it and some things you just dont agree to it too. Oh well, its okay. But i was disappointed.

Oh, I hate screaming and shouting at home. :c oh well, I just hope things get better. Everything in this world.
Nvm. Lastly, im looking forward to tmr breakfast , lunch and dinner. And hopefully my movie! * Hehee. :D I love that person a lot okay, thanks for your effort! <3 and hopefully tmr I can see that girl! Ohh, I kind of want meet her.
I miss so many people. :c nvm. Can see some in two days time~ :D

2011-09-07T22:27:00.000-07:00

8Sep. 1:40pm.
Hihihihi ~ I guess its right, we shouldnt let the world affect our smile. :D I guess im just disappointed. I got nothing else to say.
Alright, Yesterday was a zxczx. But its okay, i got it through. :D Whatever happened yesterday, so be it. I dont need people to know. So people who know please SHHHH. :x Especially one part. :P

Okay, i gotto studied alone yesterday! Yea, i like. :D Done w another chpater notes. :D 4 more to go. :x Nvm, Jiayou jiayou ! Fighting ! I believe in myself. :D
Oh, people who are not interested in reading my crap and my blog, you may not read kays. x.x
Alright, bye. Will be back.
My wish is stll for people around me to be happy.~

2011-09-06T06:12:00.000-07:00

Oh, will life be more simple? So that life have lesser problems? So that Human would be less stress/sad/angry/etc.

2011-09-06T05:38:00.000-07:00

6Sep.
Hihi. Each day past, i see the world clearer and clearer, uglier and uglier. People are changing or do they have too much faces? I know, everyone change, even myself.
Hmm, Some times people say hurtful without their knowing. Oh well, who cares.
Today was great. Physic Practional was fine, but kind of screw it. :x Hehee, nvm at least i learnt from it. And Lunch+Breakfast w A L Y C M was great too. talk and talk and talk, even talk about the 6 of us going China. :P Hahaa. Then made A cancel tuition. x.x Hehee. And Me and Y went A house. :D INTENDED to study, But oh well, talk and talk and talk. Oh and i saw Jingjing.:P ( Fyi, its a dog. ) Hahaa, Many things and crazy things happened. Then PICTURES SPAM. Then homed. :D
Tmr will be a better day for everyone i hope. Okay, dont hope, i will. :D

Yes, i love those moments, those memories that are left behind. I managed to smile whenever i think of them. Even if you dont remember or think of them. But to me, it was really great.

2011-09-05T05:00:00.000-07:00

5Sep. 8:13pm.
Heyo~ I just had my dinner and fruits too. :D Food just make me feel good, especially the one i like. :D
Life's fine. I managed to handle, kind of. :P
Oh my, weather is so hot ~ I had a wonderful day learning Physic today. Thankyouverymuch! I am more than grateful okay! Must make me, make it okay! Hehehee. :P
True friends tell you your problems, fake friends pretend they are fine w it and say you behind your back . So just be who you are. The true ones are the one that accept you for who you are and love you in any ways. If they dont, then forget it.
Oh, i love all the memories i had, its so awesome when i look at all the pictures. <3

Oh i really love the last hug we had. And its on my special day. It was a warm hug.

2011-09-02T20:31:00.000-07:00

3Sep.
Oh HIHIHI. Its SEPTEMBER ALREADY~ Time pass so fast this year. Many things happened this year. Oh, whatever, it passed already, its over already and just let it be in the past.
Oh well, Fiirst day of prelim almost killed me already. Hand pain, head pain. I hope i can make it. x.x
Okay, days w People are great. :D Moment that we go crazy w/o any reason will be the one that are hard to forget~
Alright, im looking forward to Wednesday & Thursday~ Hahaa, i miss hangng out w those people. And Monday and Thursday is going be study time. I kind of miss my group at times too. But nvm. :x
Alright, goodbye~
There is always things coming up to stop us from moving forward and going on. But we should not let it stop us, but get through it. Because we can ~

Pictures w People. :D

They made me more independent and stronger.
I wonder how are you? How i wish i could talk to you again.

2011-08-31T07:59:00.000-07:00

31Aug.
hi people. I'm here for awhile I guess. Because I really need to drop by here before I could start the cycle again.
Honestly, idk what's going on in my life. Am I too stress or what? Why ain't I feeling so much things? And why am I feeling all stressed up right now. This is like one of the few times I felt so scared, other that does orals. I'm really scared now. ): ohh, I dw to flunk my prelim again please. I swear I won't, and I really don't want it..
Forget it, I need go back and try my luck. And appreciate those friends w those little words that say good luck and jiayou. Because those simple things are enough. <3 I appreciate much, really.

Idk what's going in my life, after thinking about what my old good friend just asked and said. Yes, I am still the same, running away at times. Acting like nothing. But I guess idk what to do, other than that. ( PS, I'm grateful to be able to be even to have that short talk w you. )
Signing off, GOODLUCK TO ALL THE O LEVEL STUDENTS. AND TO THOSE N LEVEL that is next week. LEt's all try our best and get through all this last few months together, despite every little things that is stopping us. Because it's tough, it's hard. But I know we will all get it over and done w it, doing our best together, making it memorable despite all the late nights and hard work. :D fighting to everyone~

2011-08-30T01:37:00.000-07:00

30Aug.
Time for blogging. :D Hehee. Currently at home, like finally. :x And my stomach is emtpy since idk what time. :/ Only at one roti prat in the morning and nothing else. :/ I am in need of food! Okay, nvm.
Weekends was great! :D I had great food w great people ; like friends and family. <3 And i manage to study only 2 chapters. Okay thats it. If this two dont come out, im dead. S yarh, goodluck to me. And others who also study a bit. :x Hehee.
Will try to start studying soon. Serious Serious. Prelim is on THURSDAY. Like so fast! I say im scared, but i dont do anything. Hopeless me. Nvm. Shall end here. Goodbye. Tumblr, Blog, Twitter rock much.

We just have to see to from different views. We cant be stubbon. And maybe everything will look simpler and prettier. All of us have a choice, and we should be responsible for our choices, choose whats right, not other thing.
I guess, as time pass, as we grow older. Most of us will see things as a bigger picture and grow to learn. As for me, now. I see who are the one who are worth it, in the past and now. No matter what, even to the people who are not worth it, i may only realise it now, but they still once play a part in my life, that made me learnt.

2011-08-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

26Aug.
People. Today was FUN. W 2 shirln~ here. SEOULGARDEN for lunch and dinner ~ SeoulGarden ftw. Finally got that cravinng off.. Talk. Eat. Walk. Talk. Memories. <3 it's a nice day out, a nice Friday to start the long weekends w.
Pictures on Facebook, wanted to post some here, but currently using iPad, so I can't post. ): tune in to facebook, tumblr, Twitter, my phone and here for more information~
long holiday time to buck up and study. Jiayou. Fighting.
Wish for today. For my dearest shirleen to be better. <3
Goodnight people. Have a good rest.

Time will show who are the one who are true and who are the one who really care about you. We will see. :D

2011-08-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

24Aug.
Oh hi world. So many thing happened, that I really want to blog everyday. But was just too exhausted and no time to blog. I really like blogging. It's just like a diary. Different is one is type, one is write.
Oh well, but idk heats wrong w me. I kind of forget things very fast, recently. And I had great fun w people I hang out recently too. <3 awesome people yea.
And ya, I do miss others? And the answer is maybe? But nvm, who cares right. So many things. And looking at that iPhone, really bring me heartache please. ): my own hard earn money. My fault, shall just bear the consequences and pay it. Nvm. I learnt a precious lesson from it.
Oh well, I am feeling stress. I am really scared I can't make it and can't meet my targets. :/ arghhh. And I am not looking forward to anything, but afraid of things that might happened. So yarh, shall just stay this way.
Alright. Goodbye. Channel 8 show, rock big time! Nicenice.
My wish for today is for everyone to be happy.

You never thought of how you treat others but only know how to keep complaining about others. This is the reason why I chose this path.

2011-08-20T21:17:00.000-07:00

21Aug.
Hi people. Lets talk about my life. THURSDAY. Unforgettable day, I swear. The nervous feeling of result when seeing them, then no mood do amaths already. ): after that, English perod, finished work, went around to find them. Then recess finally found MrSeah. Then RESULT? Okay, the short period of time waiting for him to come out from HOD Room seem like ethnicity. Then finally, couldn't believe, so went to see. Ah ya. So week result out, but still feeling the feelings inside. The rest of the day was totally no mood, idk why. But yarh, nvm. End, REST.
FRIDAY. What was a tiring day in school even though it is till 2+. I guess Ms Goy could see that everyone was half dead doing all her work. Then went out to study, failed. Because I was to shag to study. So slack around till 6+ then work time. Ate mad Jack for lunch and dinner. :D then hang out w others awhile, homed. :D Night was a nightmare okay, so let's not talk about it. Horrible ttm. Day before talk nicely then day after like that. :/
SATURDAY. Yesterday. Horrible afternoon. Not even one word please! :c in the end also I talk. Nvm. At dinner was awesome w many people. So long never one group like that. Nicenice. Pool was fun. (Y) soccer was interesting right HL? Hahaa, we never even play properly, keep watching. Hahaa. Then home, some came my house, just to sit sit then home.
TODAY. Today will be home, studying at 10th floor w the others coming over. Alright, JIAYOU to myself and everyone. 2 more months and 3 more months! Just jiayou nia.
Alright, GOODLUCK EVERYONE. HOPE NOTHING GOES WRONG TILL THOSE DAYS FOR US. Fighting! (Y)

2011-08-17T07:38:00.000-07:00

17Aug.
Hihi. Today shall be special. I am doing a diary entry for today. Dont ask me ehh, cause I just felt like it.
Honestly I am feeing the sstress now for O level. I really scare. Thats why I had been forcing myself so much recently.
And seriously I hate people who always compare and look down improper who used to be not good. So what if you get higher or better? It doesnt always mean forever. And so what you score higher or lower? Not like after comparing you gain anything? Irritating.
And honestly, people still talk to me about someone. At times im fine, but at times I am not too. I tend to think at times and miss the times. I wish to be friends w you. Just friends. I wish I could smile at you one day, and not treating each other invisible.
Life is tough. Im tired at times. There is many things happening in my life, including my family. I hope I am able to cope w it. And I hope I can.~ Really hope.
:D
My wish for today. I miss being real happy too.
GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE FOR ALL THE TESTS / EXAMS / N LEVEL / O LEVEL.

2011-08-14T09:16:00.000-07:00

14aug.12:16am,
Yes I have school in a few hours time. And I am still here. :x it's okay, I love my blog anyway. :P
Hihihi people. What a day I had. I had a 'elections' today in my house. Ah, horrible having a chance to choose. But in the end I decided not to choose, leaving it to the others to make the decision. Whether the answer or result is good or bad. Let it be. Not like I can do anything to help. :/ even though I wish to. But nvm. I don't expect much now, after knowing and hearing those news from my daddy. Which apparently made me more scared of this year. :/ Now, all I can say is I just hope our finally decision was right for him.. Just hope things won't turn out any worse for me and my family this year. Because I can't be selfish only thinking about myself, because I have O's this year. Nvm, I respect everyone decisions. Just hope and wish for the best for now.* Pray.
Alright, enough, I guess nobody would understand anything that I was saying on top. Hahaa, it's okay. Everyone life is difficult in some sense. So shall not complain that mine isn't good.
My last 3 wishes for today. Hope that my family will be fine, as in everything. And my result to satisfied myself and my parents, not letting anything affect me till then. Please. :/ And lastly, for everyone hard times to get better.
Okay. Goodnight people. (:

It's tough, but I will get it through. SMILE PEOPLE~ It look nicer on us. :D
AND TO THOSE HAVING O LEVEL AND N LEVEL. GOODLUCK AND JIAYOU EVERYBODY.

2011-08-12T01:25:00.000-07:00

12Aug.
Hi world, Im back.
Hahaa. Prelim is coming. ARGHHHH. Need to seriously put my head into it manxz.
I hope i can. Next Tuesday O level English ORAL. :/ GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE~ And next week or next next week O level Chinese coming out. :/ Comfirm retake again ah. Nvm, prepare already ah . :c Sad but nvm. Will seriously study for this prelim. Swear. Kill me also must ah.
Alright, going rest and do some stuff now. Will come back again soon. And i enjoyed my time w my beloved friends. <3 LDT. :D Here's a photo i edit-ed. :D No matter what, Life goes on. No point looking back. No point crying over spilled milk. No point being sad over some things that the others who dont give a damn about.
Just be a happy kid. :D

2011-08-07T00:21:00.000-07:00

7Aug. 3:47pm.
Currently at friend house. <3 and someone is coming over to extra now. :x Hahaa.
Life tough! But life still goes on and never will it stop. So yarh. :D
Alright i am here to post a photo. Hehee.

Time passed, things happened.
Things changed, people changed. But there are some things that will never change.

2011-08-06T09:29:00.000-07:00

6Aug. 12:30am. Midnight. Which is 7aug for today.
Okay. Hi people. I am back. Ohh, let me tell you. Today is horrible. Ibhad a horrible sleep last night. And had a horrible day today. Can't sleep properly, drop phone into water, which is not mine. Like seriously fml. Feel bad until cannot. Ruin people plans and moods. Ohh, I am so sorry people. Really.
But thank you to all of you too. Thanks for the concern and helps, <3 And not forgetting my twin. Ah, thank you to you too!
Alright, had a horrible night last night, so hope I can sleep well tonight. Andand! POP is on Monday. And after school plan for that day is planned! Hope it will be a nice day. And hope tmr will be a nice day too!

I wish I was more careful. :c ohh, never ever going let this happened again. I rather he scold me angry at me, then saying it's fine. :c sorry! This for you. Hope you like the note I gave. And sorry for today and also thank you for today. You had been great, really great. And the words I said inside, I mean it, if you get what I mean. x.x sorry for our horrible days and nights. I hope things get better. Even though, I'm giving up. But ya.

Why bother caring and tearing for someone who won't do the same? Why getting sad over them when you don't matter? What for? People who really care about you are the one who never leave and treat you like their top and will find you even when they are busy. When you distance yourself, they realize and not don't care but look for you, search for you even how hard it is. And I saw this in two of my friends, H and M. Thankyouverymuch. You two show me how much I mean to you two as such a top friend in you two. You two are great. <3

2011-08-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

4Aug.
Hi world,
Yes I kind of afraid again now..
Looking at the world at different views. I realize so many faces people and everyone have, even ourselves.
And it make me think again, it make me doubt people. Idk who are the one who are true. And idk who are the one that feel the same way as I do.
Idk who are true. Idk who are the one that are just putting on faces and acting in front of you or just using you.
I really dk and kind of tired to bother about anything. But kind of want to distance myself from some people again.
Too afraid to fall I guess.
But I know a few people that I really can confront too. Which is really only a few. H M M S. That's all I guess. Others.? Idk. I'm sorry if your name is not here. Yarh.
Goodnight world.

2011-08-02T03:09:00.000-07:00

2Aug.
Hi People. :D Life is tough. But so what? Life still goes on. And we will make it through one day. (:
Standing outside and see everything is better please. Hahaa. You can see different people real self as time goes by.
I miss my dear friends. ): I miss the past. How things used to be. But I know it will never be the same. So yarh, so be it. What meant to be will turn out just right.
Yes, this time I'm not fine at all. And I learnt many things these few days. Shall store it inside me for a long time. Hahaa. I miss my blog too! I love this blog. Will try update more often. Hehee. :D

Yes it's okay that the strongest person fall some times. And everyone is a liar, everyone lie. And time pass, things happened, people change, things change.
And I swear to never tear for any one of them ever again. Never.
I'm off. Bye world. Will be back. :D

2011-07-23T08:16:00.000-07:00

23July.11:17pm.
What a week. Horrible that's all i can say. I think some people will know why i say that. But at least i got to say out the things i felt. But i guess things are just different. ): I am more afraid now. Nvm.
Anyway. Today was alright. Intended to stay home accompany parents. But S called, so went to meet her and come my uncle's house. then do things tgt. :D Hahaa. But sad thing is today no picture. But today made both of remember of a lot things, right? Memories. Aww, it kind of made us laugh back at those memories. HAHAHAA. And i like it that way. Hahaa. I will be looking forward to a few more days. Hehehee. Hope its good.
Alright, goodbye. I will be back. Hehehee. Because i love my blog. :D And last night was a LONG night. It had been so long since i slept so late and talk on phone for so long too. But i hope i helped. Apparently i dont it did. ):

Things happened. But the feelings i have inside stay. Because its hard to get the feeling away. They are still and just so important to me. Always.
G C K S H H T M T.

Especially one of them now. Hai.

I wish things get better. Because i can feel its not.

Yes i miss you and those times. It sounds wrong, but nvm.

I just hope it do, before i start to wonder and give up in trying again.

2011-07-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

20July. 9:38pm
July is ending already, time is passing so fast. But I am still not studying and feeling the urge to study. How. ):
Ohya. I had an unexpected encounter today. Quite shocking to me, but I was really glad to be able to talk like this again.
So many things is going on. One after another. I learnt somethings today. Don't ever put someone as your priorities if you are not his/her priorities . And keep your mouth shut when you should not say anything, so that you won't get yourself into troubles.
Okay. Not in any mood. Shall just sleep and wake up early in the morning to study morning and do homework.

I guess people change w the things they experiences. Everyone have different background and stories, that made the us today. Don't blame they for who they are, because it might because of their stories behind. And keeping quiet doesn't mean people are fine wit. Sometimes it just mean that people are good at enduring, torlerating and pretending.
And sometimes avoiding and becoming stranger might not always be the best way. Sometimes, being normal might solve the problem. But to me, I don't even have the chance.
Goodnight world, (: I hope everyone get better and happier.

2011-07-18T07:58:00.000-07:00

18July. 11pm.
NIHAO. What a month. One word to describle it for now : Horrible.
Idk why i even tears a little just now. I guessi put too much stress and pressure on myself. Helping people always, But when its my turn to solve my own problems, i became too tired to even care. At times i feel like giving up, at times i feel like ignoring the whole world, at times i feel like not having any friends at all.
Hahaa. Joke. I learnt something. Even when people dw tell you things but they show you, just say sua manxz. Dw say then jiu sua, force for what.
And i think we people should be ore sensitive towards people around us.
Hahaa. Already.I need a break despite me not doing any homeworks. :/ Sayonara.Will be back soon. :D
Life is never easy and nothing is fair in this world. But we can choose to live our life to the fullest or stop ourselves from being happy everyday and whether to make our life worth it anot.

Only if everday, the world is so beautiful.

2011-07-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

12July..
Hihi. I'm so dead tired. Time passed, my results is not even near there. :/ arghhhhh. I'm like trying to get my way through, but dk how am I suppose to make it there. When everything is like that and my brain is so empty, so limited things inside, idk if I need those helps. Arghhhhh. Irritating.
I'm too tired to care. I'm too sick and tired to give in.
Life is like this. Nothing is fair.
We should not take things for granted. See things ffrom different views. People treat us nice, don't take it for granted, because when they don't and seem to don't care, you wonder and think what's their problems sia. But did anyone when to think what people did for us? Did we even realize and appreciate it or take it as they must be so nice to us and that's what they always do it.
People don't realize, and when they realize and was about to lose it, we understand and regretted and know the importances.
It's okay. I will date my booked for just four months. I hope I can. Tiring but still must make it through.

2011-07-01T08:13:00.000-07:00

1July.
Hihi. It's JULY!! Okay this is fast. And my hand hurts a lot when I never wrap it. I think I should seriously see a doctor. :/
Dear band, I kind of miss you. There plenty of memories in there for this 4 years. It had become like a daily lifestyle for me to go band. Now that I don't need, I missed it, I miss those times we spent together, sleeping together, talking together, working hard together despite everything that is happening. The family in band, the bond in band. I will never forget. The photos will remind me of BAND. :D the hard work we put in together. AWESOME much.
And dear friends, I miss you all too. But I kind of feel nothing anymore. Numb? Idk. Or just nothing anymore. Ask me if I'm fine w the things now, and my answer is Yes, I am. Because I got myself to face up w everything. Because so be it. It's okay.~
And lastly, my dear my friend, I kind miss you at times. But I didn't say. But you always leave when idw you to. Now, it's time for me to stop falling. This time, I won't. If you want leave again. So be it. I said how I feel towards you already. Since you chose to go on, alright. Just make sure, don't you come back and say the same thing tone all over again, thankyou,

Alright, now. SCHOOL. Classes till 5pm everyday. TIRED DEAD please. How to stay awake for so long! But school is nice to us this year. They provide us w food. :D Hehehee. It's alright. Its our 4E/5N last run. We just have to bear w it for a few more months. And we are FREE. For at least quite awhile. Hahaa.
Time pass ah? Many things happened. People changed, things changed. But this is life. I'm learning more and more as time goes by. People around me, I observe. And learnt and see things. It's amazing how we are right now. Everyone is so different and unique in our own way, this is just how it is. It's okay, everyone is special. :D
I HOPE EVERYONE GOODLUCK IN EVERYTHING. :D AND STAY HAPPPY~

Nothing is easy in this world. But if we work towards it and believe in ourselves, nothing is impossible. It's tough, but it's all worth it. Nothing is fair in this world, because this is life.

2011-06-29T09:39:00.000-07:00

Its 29June today. And its 12:40am now.
Its a horrible day honestly. Acting fine to cover up how I feel. Arghhh.
Ohh, how I wish all this would go away.
Never ever remind me of someone throwing me way because of another person. Never remind me of people using other people to forget me. Oh please. Jist not all this. Dont remind me things. Dont remind me things that Idw to rmb. Because I dont miss them. I miss us. How I used to be w them. Because I knew them, knew how they was. And the memories I once had. Test me. Because its still all inside me.
I need to sleep to get better. Bye.

2011-06-24T06:30:00.000-07:00

24June. 9:31pm.
Ohh, this 9 o'clock show rock Bigtime.
Okay. So arghhh right now. Like seriously. If you are not interested in looking at this, i warn you. Please, get off this site now.
Seriously, i guess i was right to build walls around me. I wish people stay and not come and go. Now, i regret taking away those walls, and try stepping out of it. What for, seriously ? Yes, PEOPLE COME AND GO. I need to face this. There's no forever between friends. Becauses you will realise people go. And i build walls up and run away at times, to see who are the ones who stay and look for me. And who are the one who dont bother, dont give a damn and those who just walk away when they meet someone new, better i guess.
Yes, thanks to everyone to show me this. I swear YongHuiJing will never put in so much EVER again, and will NEVER drip a single tear to any of my friends ever again!
Family are the only will NEVER go, no matter what. They come, but they dont go.

2011-06-23T09:01:00.000-07:00

23June. 12:05am Midnight.
Hi People. Today is tiring. Idk why. Slept quite a lot in the afternoon today. So shag now. But i need to sleep to study hard. I haven finish my homework. :/ ARGHH to myself. -.- I need to study. nvm, will try to do it tmr. :/ I need to do my best. (:
Ohya, Adam Khoo's Workshop was awesome max. Leaernt many things. And its really time for me to work hard and start to REALLY study. Yes, Retribution. I believe in that. And yes, nobody can affect or pull us down. Only if we allow them to do so.
And yes, Lets all be Happy, no matter what happened. I cant afford anymore. :c Even though how easy i can get affected. I guess its time to change..

I miss youyouyouyou.

2011-06-16T10:03:00.000-07:00

17June. 1:03am. x.x
Hi PEOPLE. DOnt ask me why am i still awake. Because im just still awake. :P And not really feeling sleepy. Aww, i had been sleeping so much. One word, SHIOK.
Life is fine. Like finally i can say its fine, for once. W my family around, its just so much better. Im sorry everyone. I wont be going out so often anymore. Anyway, this whole weekdays, i didnt go out at all except wed for just a few hours and im home. Other days, i am going home straight after school. :P Hehee. Home is nice for once. x.x Going home later after that ss workshop too. Aww, i feel that school ending at 3 is late enough, when school reopen, ohgosh, is going be longer. And im not use to it. :/ ARGHHH.
Okay, shall stop ranting about life. :x Hehee.
Will come back again soon. Goodbye. Goodnight world.

I miss them. But this time, i give up. Maybe you dont feel the way like i do, you may be one of the person who can make me tear. But i guess you have your others. Sometimes idk what to talk about, there is something weird inside now. Because i know time pass, things changed, you are closer to them. Im fine w it now i guess. I will not tear for you all anymore.
Yes, Life is like this. People come and go. OKAY. Huijing is like this. :/ Im tired. Its okay. Thankyou to those people that who never left & who is always there. <3

2011-06-13T00:59:00.000-07:00

13June.
HI WORLD, Im back here. Still prefer here for now. But will be using both tumblr and here. So yarh.
Alright, the truth is days was never fine. NEVER. But its okay, Huijing is still living, stil surviving. :D
At some point of time, im just tired of being strong. Its normal i guess. Because the best falls down sometimes. Because even the strong ones want to runaway sometimes. Because one of my freind told me not to give up, because one day the rainbow will appear, i just need to wait. But sometimes im tired of waiting for such a long time.
I miss everyone below at times. :c But nvm, i just hope they know they mean a lot to me. Thats all will do. And its not in any order, its just random pick.

Aww, im so tired. ): Ohhh, i need some rest. Goodbye. Will blog again soon.
I need to study. Anyone please teach me how to force myself to study. ARGHHHH.
Ohhh, what a fool i was and till now. :/ Kill me please. Cant stand myself anymore. It wont matter anymore, and i wont let it pull me down anymore. And i will find my way through. I dont need to say/explain/tell you anything anymore. I always fail in you. :/ i cant anymore! This time its final. If it had to turn out this way, so be it, i tried my best, i wont regret.

2011-06-12T08:24:00.000-07:00

Ask me whats wrong, and i will tell you everything is wrong.
I wonder at times if keeping everything inside and not talking to anyone and not replying anyone is the right choice? I wonder if me not doing anything was a right choice? I wonder if anyone knows whats going on and if anyone knows how much things im going through.
I wonder whats wrong w me. I wonder when will the raining days stop and when will the rainbow appear. ):

Lastly, i hope my grandmother recover soon. ); Worried.

2011-06-06T16:33:00.000-07:00

This time its going be different. One year back and now.
Idk what else to say.
Many things will remind me, I bet.

Ahh, huijing must be happy when she go. Byebye. Sorry that I never say.

Takecare to those special one.
<3 Sorry, I didnt msg anyone.
GL TT HL M ST KT HY CO. <3 They are special. Takecare everyone.

2011-06-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

Thankyou people! <3
Touched. GL TT HL M S KT TL YY HY CO. They are special. :D
And thanks to some of them that made a good night for me! (:
Okay, Im off to sleep or else dnt wake up to do breakfast later on. x.x
Im here because tumblr fail me. :c Nvm, GOODNIGHT WORLD~ (:

Do you rmb one year back, this time? Because I do. I rmb the stupid, silly and simple things. Hahaa.

2011-06-06T04:26:00.001-07:00

Im sorry if I left without saying.
Because this time, I just dont feel like saying it to anyone.
Sorry. I know this is not like me, but yarh. Im just sorry.

2011-05-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

Because being strong was the only choice I have. because I know no one wants to se, this me. thats why I am not saying to anyone.
Because every strong person wants to runway sometimes.

Im sorry, I am just not as strong s you think.
Acting fine and acting high nd hapy, doesnt always mean I am fine at all.
Because today I am tired..

2011-04-23T07:29:00.000-07:00

23April. 10:32pm.
Hi People. :D It had been long since i am here.
I kind of miss blogging thats why i am back here today.
Days had been like shyt, but its okay. Because i know i have AWESOME FRIENDS out there <3 Tests is everywhere. STRESS DIE. I really need work hard. But i just cant find the mood out there. ): ARGHHHH.

Life was never easy. Everyone is going through some stuff right now. And i wish life was more simple for everyone out there.
Yes, i was NEVER fine, since that day. And it had been 3months plus. It had been so long, i never had to go through all this shyt for such a long time before. And i can say, not one person knows everything. I guess the only thing i still recongise myself as is this : i still dont say everything out. I cry, but i keep quiet. I cry, but i reply w smile and say i am fine. I cry, but i am still here walking through all the shyt.
Because i have to believe that one day, just one day i will make it through. I will get over you one day.. 'The days i thought i will never get over you, i got over you.' Idk how long, i really dk. How long more? Im tired. But life goes on~ So do i.
because i see no point in looking back, i see no point in caring for you. Even though i seem to be more worried of your health than you.
FINE, yarh, its your life. I dont have any rights here. Since you dont care, i shouldnt too. Okay. I will try~

I realise how much helping someone else would change my mood. Because seeing someone close to you sad, make you sad too. Seeeing him/her happy, make you happy too~
So i wish i could see ALL my goodfriends happy. I wish to see those beautiful smiles~ <3

Because if i leave thinsg the way it is. And if i walk away at times even when things are not fine. And if i did nothing to a situatuion that i should. I am really sorry. Yes, i changed. Because everything hurts. That i am too tired to care about anything anymore. Im sorry.

I wish that life was more simple to all my dearest friends~
Shirleen. Gen. Huiying. Hweeling. Tricia. Trexie. Conan. Michael. Syed. Ali. Keith. Zihan. Whole grp of ACE that really made my life better* [ stop thinking of things. :/ ] Clavance. Jinyin. Brandon. [ Because i still believe you are good to some extend. I rmb the things you did, that was that great. You are still my friend, idk how hate you. Sorry. ]
Things pull us down. But friends are the one that will support us if we fall. But we are the one who will pull through everything w the right thinking~

2011-03-28T08:20:00.001-07:00

Im on tumblr now. HEHEEE. Mind me.
I will be back here when i use the com. :D Dont worry. Will try to keep this alive. :P Tumblr is really nice. Because my handphone got that app! :D Okay, i am offf.
I will not be so tired after 1 and a half week. :D I smell freedom. I want back those times! I need a break, seriously. Nvm, i am still alive, still living, wont die so easily. Yea.

We are stronger than what we think.

2011-03-18T07:46:00.000-07:00

I miss my dear friend.

18March.
PEOPLE. :D Hi. Yes, it had been such a long time, since im here blogging. i kind of miss blogging, but couldnt find enough time to blog. Nvm, shall update a short one here.
It had been a tiring, stress, all sort of not good things this three months. And this 3D2N camp, i swear, the days, seem extremely LONG. Idk why. But nvm. And yes, kind of miss my friend, while im in camp. Hahaa, i think i get use to telling that friend everything when im not okay. Thankyou. :D
And i miss one of my dear friend too, but i dont think that person know that who im refering to would be he/her. Nvm. I miss the times i had w my friend.
Okay now, thinking about memories. This make me miss all my goodfriends. I miss every single one. All the memories that are irreplaceable. I swear, i never forget them.
I miss A, G, X, C, Y, S, T, B.
I kind of miss all the memories i had, w all my friends, whether is very close or okayokay. I miss a few of us gathering tgt and talk like there's no tmr. :P
Im staring to miss everything! ): Because i know, the rest of the year, is going to make me so tired and busy, that a lot of things will happened, and i am going to miss more things. ):

Sorry people, for me being all sort of weird things. I guess people who still read this, are only my close friends, and i think you all understand what i mean. Thanks for being such understanding and awesome friend. <3 Thankyou all.

2011-03-03T04:49:00.000-08:00

3March. Time Check : 8:50pm.
HIHIHIHI ~ Yes, im finally back in front of this computer. it had been veryvery long since i touch computers. HAHAAA, And i want to blog so much last few weeks. But just couldnt find time to type everything out in my phone. AND Yes! Finally i have today that is less homework and no test tmr. :D Like finally only.
I guess so many things happened. But i forgot half of it. How great can i get. :/ My memory got some problems recently. SAD. But i guess its kind of good im so busy w studies, books, band, tests, friends and many more. So i wont anyhow again. :P
Ermmm, PEOPLE if you are not interested w my craps, you don't need to read on. Because now, i just feel like typing some long blog post. Mind me. :D Don't bother reading, its okay. (:
REALLY MANY things happened. ): Kind of good and bad. Shall elaborate it later. Let me say about my Msia Trip~ <3 I had a great time there. That 3days 2nights, seem long and short at the same time. But im sure im glad i was there, because i finally got away from this ugly world here. Sorry but yarh. If you know me well, you will know the reason why i chose to go and not stay. I guess i am really getting a lot more brave. Even when i was thr, things wasnt perfect anyway. i kind of miss here, kind of miss people, kind of want come back, but kind of want stay on thr too. Because the wedding was AWESOME. But many things made me things of people. Kind of really sad. Nvm, shall not say anything.Alright, im back. But i couldnt receive any of those 3days msges! ): Okay, is sad ttm please, but maybe its better for me to not get all those i guess, since thats the way it turn out. SO i am going to take it. :D
Yea, my days had been CRAZY. My world revolve around all this : BUSY TIRING TESTS STUDIES BOOKS SLEEP FRIENDS. Fullstop. And YongHuijing is getting better. She even manage to step back into that place. that Hdb flats, that subway, that spect shop, that whole places. Everything. I swear, i never expect myself to face all those at one go, and i even manage to get through, its amazing how i got this far. Im proud of myself. And ofcos not forgetting everyone that was thr. I am more than greatful please. <3 Sorry my crazy times, but i am sure now, im fine. :D Dontworry and thankyouverymuch. Please know who you are, because everyone of you play a part in me. :D
Because its amazing how goodfriend became strangers. ):
Because its amazing how a great friendship get replaced and became nothing.
Because its amazing how people changed, come and go.
Because its amazing how people have SO many faces.
Because i am utterly speechless to you already. You made me think that everything from the start was just a lie, a total lie, a total show that was made up by you and i was so stupid enough to believe in every single thing, very single LIES you said. :/ Is it you or me? I said you changed, you said me. And i just dw spoil my own mood, i kept quiet when i have million of words inside me. You did everything in my face. How mean can you get? You said all those? In to me. I had a choice to said back, to scold back to do something. But i chose the no choice path. Where i just stood there and let everything pass by, everything go, everything away, and you to contoinue whatever you want say or do. You changed the Huijing before back to the Huijing that is once so strong, that is once so positive. And i told myself to be back that Huijing. And i will do my best. Please, you made it so far. So did i. Lets not, NEVER EVER turn back. Because a look kill me, because i failed badly in you. :/ ME and You had to continue our own way. We had to. Because you did, i will. :D
All i could say now is. You need to Growup, im serious. This is not love, this is not how a friendship is. Think about it. Your life is in your hand. Because at the end of the day, no one can help you, because its still all up to you to handle it. If you think fighting can solve things, then let it be. If you think that this is the kind of matter you use to do things, let it be. Idk how much lies you had said. And now, i dont even want to know. Because honestly, even if you come back to tell me anything now. Im sorry, but im not the hj anymore. Your lies had just made me dont respect you, dont trust you. You chose to make me think this way towards. Yarh, i am disappointed. Because i never knew you were like this. I guess its my mistake and fault to believe in everything and to get myself into this. Forget it, idw say or blame anything. You made things clear, im DONE. And this time im sure, im firm. Because the next time im going to see your name on my phone or anything, i wont be blow off that easily anymore. And one day i would throw that book, softtoy, pictures, letters, msges, darft, notes, everything before away. Because what is the point of treating someone so nice, when people is treating you so MEAN! They are mean, we should learn to be as mean as them. To them, they deserve some of all this bullshyt.

I will be standing there. Its your life. Get this clear, its in your hand. You want it this way, then so be it. Trust me, one day, when you Really Growup, you will laugh at yourself. (:

2011-02-18T00:39:00.000-08:00

A few more hours. Its 4pm now. Most of us are having cca now. I am not. I walked home today alone. And this feeling is very different from every other time. Idk why but yarh. And I swear I don't like this feeling. ): and the weather is making me worst! :/
Nvm. I hope you you you you you are fine please. Really hope.
Sorry to others. Really sorry eh.
Okay, I got nothing much to say. Will update another time.
People who know the other blog please go. Thank you.

2011-02-14T07:44:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 14Feb. 11:44pm.
Hihihi! :D less than a few mins and val. day is ending! But its okay. Valentines day is to share the love w all your friends is great too! Chocolate! <3 YAY! :D
Im improving. Okay im totally proud of myself! :D being the now me really mean a lot. Idk how say but yarh. I am learning so much more from everyone around me . Not bad. :P
Alright, i got nothing to say here. ): nvm. Heheee . Bye.
Lastly, HAPPPYVALENTINESDAY to everyone! :D

I wish everyone have a blog. And everyone can just post everything thr even for girls or boys. So that everyone will knoe everything without thinking abt what that person is thinking as wr can just go thr seee~

2011-02-11T09:29:00.000-08:00

You are nothing better.
Words are powerful. Tell you what, treating ppl like this? Trust me, you will regret one day. You never realise the ppl around. The friend that cried for you. The friend that get disappointed by you. Did you realise them? You never. You changed SO much. Tell you what, got nothing to say. Speechless, totally. Go away. Idk you anymore and never want to again.
I feel sorry for you and feel bad and blame myself for everything. Now? I wont feel bad, i wont feel sorry, i wont blame everything on myself.
Trust me. Bao ying do occur.
I never said that kind of things abt someone or you before. I even helped you and say gd things and yarh. Now what i get/heard/treated? Fine. You want to be so mean. Let it be. Dont blame me for doing the same thing.
Enjoy your life manxz. Because i dont care anymore. From.today onwards, got nothing to do w me. Alone? No one? Your fault..
Start realising things, see this world carefully, see who is true who is not, who is worth who is not. Because doing all is just making yourself.
Because you made me felt fking stupid, and i swear this time i realised already. Thats all.
If you continue.ike that, you will.never find happiness. I hope the next time i talk to you, you changed for the better. Or else i dont even think.i want to help you. Im sorry.
I made me this way! :/ + ):

2011-02-09T08:28:00.000-08:00

Crazy, Content, Smile.
Crazy, SquareOne, Sank.
Repeat everything again.

I need to sleep and rest seriously. But cant. :/

2011-02-08T08:32:00.000-08:00

Its suppose to be 8rh. But it pass 12 already. So yarh, its 9th today. And now is 12:33am.
Okay. I was suppose to be tired. But after that round of ahem. I think it went like a tap again but nt as worst as ytd. And now that cause me not that sleepy. But i will still try to sleep. Nights people.
Many things happening around. Better? Some ba. :D good anyways.
But i got plenty of homeworks waiting for me to be complete but i keep falling sick. :/ everytime panadol. Grrrr. Nvm. Hope things dont come at the wrong time pls. Thankyou.
Alright. I hope everything, everyone get better.
Okay. Im off. Ohya, now to think of it. I wonder who still read this bloody blog, if you do, leave a tag at my tagboard pks. (: Hehehe. Just want to know.

Because the reason was simple. Tried, failed. Crazy, missed. Smile, voice. Happy. Hehehee. (:
Imissyou. Iloveyou. My dear friend. <3
And thankyou someone for always being thr and all the concerna. I swear that long msges really touched me. But only if i could feel something towards you..

2011-02-05T08:10:00.001-08:00

TimeCheck : 5Feb. 11:58pm.
Its going be a sunday soon. Time passes fast when idw it tooo. ): sad, because idw sch. Nvm. I need still need to go.alright, so little angbao this year. ): nvm. Firstday of cny, out w family. (: nice. Secondday, homes whole day. :/ BORING. Thirdday, out to friends hs bai nian. :D
Getting to wear newyear clothes is awesome~ :D so diff me. :x hahahaa.
School is starting AGAIN SOOON. ): homeworks and tests are coming tooo. Shyt this. I got white hair! Shyt this more! :/ pray that i wont have anymore, please. ):

Lies cant bring you anywhere, but it can bring me till a certain point. Till that point. Let me tell you, because this feeling suck Bigtime. I need shutup seriously. Grrr. Finally, t.... is back. Ahahahaaa. Nvm. Im getting crazy.
Hope i get better. Now, all i wish is to help you. Thats all..

2011-02-02T07:36:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 2Feb. 11:36pm.
Hi People! :D
Its like finally new year! Im happy becuse i get to wear my new clothes! <3 HAHAAA.
Life get tougher, but its okay. I will make it through.
Today school was totally nth la. Go sch to deco only. Had amaths lesson for 30mins. And the cny songs was playing! Funny and irritating. :x after lessons, was awesome! Had fun deco the classrooom. Those rabbits are so cute! And those drawing, they are good in drawing, totally. Yea. Fun. :D then went back mbs. Closed. :/ nvm. Ate tgt at bubbletea shop. And home i go. Bathe and out again to bugis to meet N and B. So ong since we meet up. Then talktalk. :D nicenice. Hahaaa. Thanks ah. And went back meet hl, bbt again! :x
And homed at 5+. Wa. Everyone come liao. :x on aircon. Shiok only. Hahahaa. Family gathering, reunion are totally AWESOME! <3. Sad thing is cousin away fron work. ): or else will get to take pics again. Nvm. Tmr. :D w newyear clothes! :D

Im starting to learn now. Yes very slow, but at least i do.
This time im letting go. I never want look back even again. I hope you changed for the better kays. Im happy that you have her. (: make up your mind la. Haiyo. Its nt the first tine this kind happened alr. Its time for you ro go think properly nd not so many la seriously.
Still hope for the best for you. Because you are the thing i missed the most. :D
Because im smiling when i see everything abt you now. I need to, so i will.

2011-02-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

Time check. 2Feb. 12:30am.
How great. I had been slping so late! I am so tired! Today thanks to sister. How great, manage to reach home at 11 only. Im dropping dead on.my bed now.
CNY IS HERE REAL SOOOON! HAHAHAAA.
New year clothes waiting to be wear! :D Family gathering! :D yes i like that!

I need face everything w a smile. Seriously. I will learn.
I learnt a lot this few weeks. Yes. Thanks to everyone, everything.
I guess sometimes i seriously know too much. Things that i rather dk. Nvm. At least i can see clearly and know the truth now.
This is not call love. If you could change your heart and mind so fast. Temporary was the right words to use.. Used.. Replacement..

2011-01-31T08:41:00.000-08:00

Time check : 1Feb. 12:45am.
Just finished some of my homeworks. Not all. But almost im too tired to continue. This is serious killing me one day. Homeworks please get lesser. ): thankyou.
I finally got better a lot, and now im back to square one. How great. I need focus. I need study. I need to.
I need to make cmi become can make it. :D
I need be back the huijing. Idk which hj. But yarh. Nvm.
Shall had a date w G tmr. :D HEHEHEEE. Like finally.

I need to go the other blog urgently. ):
Only if you read the other one. But i doubt so. Its okay. (:

2011-01-29T23:58:00.000-08:00

Timecheck : 30Jan. 3:48pm.
Hi! :D family is still the best. Because they care and love. <3. Thankyou daddy for waking up just to fetch me. Thankyou mumny for willingly buy the shoe that i wanted but i still rejected because its ex. Thankyou jiejie for always stealing my cloth to wear and now wanting to pay for my clothes. :D at least this is better. Hahaha! And my others family. Yes, im looking for CNY now! :D
Hahaa. Days are better i guess. Thanks to people around and myself. :P
Hahaa. Alright. Went sch on fri for an hour and home. :/ waste time only. See doc and rest whole day. Im sick for two wks, how great. Never so worst before. But nvm. I pray that i will be better please. (:

Thankyou everyone. For everything. <3. Sorry for my attitude, mood and stuff. Thankyou!
You moved on. And now is my turn. I never want to look back, because just a look will kill me inside out. I still cant make myself believe you moved on so well, so fast. I guess i didnt know you well.. Nvm. Now that i know you are happy and w her around, you are happier. Thats all i guess. I have no rights to say anything.
So i will just keep quiet. And you dont need know how i feel.or what. Because its nothing to you. I swear i was disappointed to not receieve anything from you on fri. That made me totally give up all my hopes.
Thats all. Ni kai xin jiu hao.

2011-01-27T07:28:00.000-08:00

Time Check : 27Jan. 11:28pm.
Hihihihi! :D i had been seeing 11:10, 11:11, often. Actually it dont make a diff seeibg this two timing. Nvm.
Okay, result is finally all back! Yay! Huijing FAILED alll! How pro can i get seriously? This is the worst result i ever had. :/ grrrrrr. Whats wrong w me. Im so disappointed and angry w myself. Forget it. I need reflect and start passing! ):
Jiayoujiayou! Tests and homeworks and school and vand is killing me seriously. Its only the first month! There is more to cone! ): nvm, must stay on!
Everybody, goodluck.
I need more slp to stay awake in classss. Jiayou everyone! And this month had been a sucker. I wish that next month will be better please! The whole yer, let this yr be a better yr for me. Praypray.

And thankyou those people for all the concern and care. <3 Lovedie all of you. Hehehee. :D
HJH! <3

2011-01-22T19:41:00.001-08:00

TimeCheck : 23Jan. 11:06am.
Hihihi. :D im back to blog. Like finally. Or else its going dead! ):
Days are never fine. Im still not fully recover yet. Cant even eat much. Eat very little. Sore throat like crazy. Feeling a bit crazy at times. But yea. :D
Please dont ever ask me about my block tests i warn you all. Im sorry. Its nothing be proud of. So yarh. So dont bother asking me.
And im moving. You made everything clear. Its not because i no longer do. But maybe i let go, because i hope for the best for you, despite everything.
Now, all i want is be friends w you. Thats all..
I guess you dont need know how not fine i am. How much things i did while you are gone. How much tears came along. Just let it be me.
You dont need to come back to my memories. No matter how mich im feeling inside, i wont say to you. Its really painful here.
You alr did all this to me.. Its so clear alr.. Stop coming back and say all those please.. All i want is to be friends now..
)':

2011-01-18T02:24:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 18Jan. 6:25pm.
Just came from the other one. Feeling better after typing out. :D
Nvm. Days are no good. Im sick. ): Very sick in school. Idk if i should go school. Idk. I really dk. Sorry to people are worry for me. Thankyou for all the concern. Really touched, <3.
Xiexie! :D
Alright, results is going to kill me.. )': Nvm! I will buckup! I need to!
Jiayou everyone tooo! <3.

Thankyou everyone, <3.
Im disappointed. Is that really you? Idk. Idw to know anymore. I hope you change for the better. Thats all. A lot things i could say to you. But i know i cant. Shall just hold back..

2011-01-16T09:42:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 17Jan. 1:42am.
Hi PEOPLE. Yea im still wide awake. Dont ask why. Hehehee.
School suck. :x its only the 2nd wk! And later on is the 3rd week! And its only two weeks. And i already breakdown so many times. How great.
I think.i should seriously buck up. I need to. I have to. I will.. I hope so.
Everyone, Goodluck. JIAYOU!

I guess this month had been a sucker. So many things happening to everyone around. I hope everything will be back like how it use to when everyone is happy. :D when i see people happy, i happy. :D
Thankyou those who had been there. I really have a million thankyou here. Really. Appreciate a million! <3
Dear God, make everyone happy. Thats all.

)':

2011-01-02T23:54:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 3Jan2011. 3:58pm.
And i chose to stay at home today. Im sorry. Nvm. Im really tired.
AND HAPPYBIRTHDAY MY DEAREST LOVE, <3 Hope you enjoy. Remind me bring yours to school tmr. :D ILOVEYOU. :D
Holiday just ended. TODAY. TOMORROW IS SCHOOL!
And i need tell myself to face everything all over again. :/ How great. Nvm. Im good in this.. :/
Alright, SEE EVERYONE FROM BARTLEY IN SCHOOL TMR! :/
Seriously, im not looking forward at all, to some extend. Except that i can see my friends~ And Talk to my Jiejie in class like how we always do in school. :D

Time pass, everything change. Even you and me.

Huijing is strong!
She is.
She will make it through.
She is fine alone.

2010-12-28T20:52:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 29Dec. 12:54pm.
Hi. :D Im back. Im not feel alright now. Nvm.
Yesterday was a ARGH day. Is going up and down. :/
I guess i really start to learn and control already. Maybe i should not be going so what about it..
School reopen soon! Very soon. Very. Im scared, i swear i am.. nah, not important. Pray hard, everything PLEASEPLEASE DONT GO WILD! ):
Sorry, nth much to say anyway. Just came to update awhile. Sorry thats is a short one. Thankyou people who had been coming here and read. :D Thankyou. :D
Goodluck to next year 4E people. :D

Thankyou Love, who had been here by myself to listen to everything. I swear, thankyou so much. I always feel better after talking to you.
Now, i hope you are fine too. Dont care okay. Jiayou too. :D Dont get upset because those people. Not worth it kays. Just follow your heart. Anything MUSTMUST say okay!
And yes, i will tell myself what to do.. Thankyou. :D
ILOVEYOU. <3

Everytime i tell myself to be strong and stay strong. More tears just roll down..
I really dk how to control. ): Im so weak now. So scared.
So TIRED..
I need to scold myself. :/
.

2010-12-26T07:04:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 26Dec. 11:06pm.
Hihihi. :D Days are fine i guess. Things dont go crazy again can already.
Thankyou Love & Daddy. <3
Thankyou for being there. Appreciate xmillion! Im feeling better everytime i talk to you two. :D
And ofcos Thankyou HL & J. Really! You two had been going crazy, trying to make me happy w everything. really thankyou. <3 And the ring, i love you guys. Is prettyy! THANKYOUSOMUCH.
And G! Oioi, dont anyhow think la. HAVE DE. RMB MY LETTER! :P really la. Dont care la. Next year important year, just care abt studies can liao. :D I promise you, i will find a date for you this weeek! :D

Huijing is strong!

2010-12-23T06:00:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 23Dec. 11:16pm.
Hihihihi! :D Okay, Huijing had been quite busy this holiday, is packed somehow. Alright, seriously, honestly, somehow, sometimes i feel tired. ): Nvm. :D
Okay, sorry for not updating. But yarh. :D You can see HOLIDAY IS ENDING SOOOON! ): Spam sad faces. );
I haven finish homeworkS! I haven even start studying! ): I haven do their presentS! ): this is so driving me crazy please. ):
Thanks to the people around me. :D HEHEEE. Everyone single one did a part to make everyday, every tiring and boring day, worth it. :D <3

I think im crazy this few days. Nowadays.
So many things running through my mind.
Tears flowing down. Keeping quiet.
I have my reasons for everything i do..

2010-12-15T21:48:00.000-08:00

TimeCheck : 16Dec. 1:49pm.
Holiday is going to end soon. ): Homeworks is half done i hope? But haven start studying for exam. ): How. Two more weeks, its going be very fast!
I am so afraid! I am so worried! I am so scared!
): Prayypray.

I am sorry, Please understand. I wont ask for your forgiveness, because i chose this. Just want you to know, thats all..

2010-12-10T22:18:00.000-08:00

Time Check. : 11Dec. 2:18pm.
Its 11. It had been a month for so many things. One month for ahgong in hospital. Its also on this date. One moth seem things change again. Hai. Nvm. :D
Huijing is Strong! She is..!
Alright lets say abt my day.
Sushi making w hl. Was awesome! :D <3 shall do it again sooon. :p
Sentosa, band outing was crazy! :D w those crazy people. Yay. They totally rock! :D had a great time. But thanks to the seawater. I got bites! And its a lot. ): so itchy. And my hair so damage. ): the colour is gone! ): nvm.
Yesterday! W those crazy two person. Yy and G. Thankyou for goibg crazy. :p you two rock toooooo! :D Hahahahaa.
And G. Aww. ily. :p thankyou so much for the post! Hehee.
And tyy. You ah. You 9pages long msg, really touched me please. Iloveyou Bigtime. Thankyou for everything. I promise you to have a wonderful birthday present from me next year! <3
And D, thankyou for tolerating me. :p Loveyou. <3 ttmttc. PPFF. :D
And my dearest love. You rock Bigtime. Thankyou for being there w me. ILOVEYOU. <3
And thenkyou every other one..

2010-12-05T22:18:00.000-08:00

Time Check. : 6Dec. 2:19pm.
Hi People. Idk how to talk about my days. No words to describle it.. :D
I just want to say im sorry if i had brcome a bit mad, a bit crazy, a bit moodswing, a bit not normal, a bit not me. Im just sorry. Thats all. Please just mind me. Thankyou. :D
And im sorry if i dont blog much anymore. Because i will be using my phone more often then coming here. Hehee. Paiseh. Thankyou for understanding.

2010-12-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

Time Check. : 2DEC! 11:00pm.
Its today! Finally! After one year of waiting! Hehee. Happy but not really also. But its okay.
I'm here to just thanks some people. I'm greatful. Even thouvht I didn't really thanks all of you all nicely. I'm sorry. But believe me, I was really happy because of every single msg, calls, effort, thoughts, hearts, words and everything you all did for me. <3
THANKYOU A MILLION! <3
Thankyou for the surprise on wed! :D Jy. E. T. HL. THANKYOU! <3 I'm lost of words at first. Just
too touched kays. You all really rawks Bigtime! And four of you for the conf phone call! Awesome ttm. THANKYOUVERYMUCH! <3
And thankyou for all the msges! Those longlong one! <3 Sorry for short reply, please understand. But please know that I'm really greatful to everyone that make things worth.
AND TYY! OMG, your boook rawks! A lot! Hahaha. I'm smiling away when I read it! Shall keeep it nicenice.
And thankyou for all the handmade stufff! It totally awesome! <3
And thankyou B, for the stitch, really! <3 It will be my soulmate from today onwards! :D
And ofcos you, C, I didn't expect from you. :x but you stilll did! Ahhh, thankyouverymuch! You are really a great friend of mine.! :D
And my dearest bestest Love! You are really great! I swear. Thankyou for your shoulder, your concern, your effort. Everything. I love the present! It shall be on my table from today onwards. <3 thankyou!
And the rest who givving me. Just an advance THANKYOU to everyone.
Thankyouverymuch, <3

And my wish for this year is!
For EVERYTHING. Yes. EVERY SINGLE THING to get BETTER. Just better will do.

2010-11-30T03:16:00.000-08:00

Time check. : 30Nov. 6:57pm.
Currently at somewhere now. Dw say..
Hai, how worst can things get seriously..? Tell me. When will the storm be gone and the rainbow to appear? Whenwhen.
My birthday is in two days! Yay. Yarh. :/ not interested anymore.. don't ask why. Just not. Goodbye.
Things just changed. Things just changed like a lightning bolt. How amazing. How I wish it will just stop here for me.. And let it all out at one go, now.. dk how hold already..

Okay, idk why am I worried abt your health among everything. I guess all this make me realise that we had to really take good care of ourselves. How I wish I could tell you and care abt you the last time. Just the last time.. Nvm.
Stop hoping, huijing. You just get disappointed again and again. And shutup..

2010-11-27T04:14:00.000-08:00

Time check. : 27Nov. 8:16pm.
Hi. Huijing is back. :x She is bloody having a headache now again. ): actually is almost everyday.
My days are finr I guess on the outside. Thanks to my friends. :D For spending time w me. :D Alright, I shall post some random stuff today. Hehee. Don't be shock of you see your name. :p
Bestestlove, iloveyoumanymany please. <3 Thankyou for everything! :D You know you mean a lot to me. :D Wed okay? :D Heheee.
Bestestfriend, I am so sorry for today. Really had to go and not feeling well. Sorrysorry. I am so sorrry. ): Plan w you again soooon! :D
Hi G! You promise to msg me everyday. ): I'm waiting everyday leh. Make me wait but don't have. ); faster, must rmb. Don't make me wait alr. :D And I miss going out w you! Hehee.
Hi S! We never go out for years arh? I miss our bus ride! Hang out sooon!
Hi my derest Jiejie, ily! :x imy again. Shyt. :x Please hang out w me sooon! I miss talking to you! The way we talk like so unique. :x Hahahaa!
Hi CO, hang out soon okay? :D
And my dearest friend, I hope we are fine. I hope things go back where how it use to. Idk if you even read this.. :/ but I guess if you really can't then forget abt it alr alright? If tbings was meant to be this way. Then let it be.. I tried my best. I had enough. I deserve something better. Just a wish.

2010-11-25T03:33:00.000-08:00

Time Check : 25Nov. 7:35pm
Hihihi! Im currently at Amk Library. Omg, we this 5 crazy people. Nvr do work de la. 1/4 of the time doing work. 3/4 of the time laughing and talking! Crazy people! Yesterday, 12people! More crazy!
But this two days was so tiring please! LAstlast night 6hours of sleep. Lastnight 4hours of sleep. So little! Holiday only have like 8hours of sleep. ): Omg, i am not having enough sleep. ): Dont have a proper sleep before. How great.
Days are just getting worst la. Hai, today so early wake up, want die liao. ): I am so going to sleep tonight! Or else i will faint tmr morning. :/
But thankyou those crazy people! My afternoon is not that worst. Thankyouthankyou. :D
And thankyou Bestestfriend and bestestlove. :D

Can you assume me it wont happen again? Please. :/

2010-11-22T20:49:00.000-08:00

Time check. : 23Nov. 12:49pm.
Ohh, thankyouverymuch, are you here to show me, piss me, break me, tear me apart? If yes, you are got me. I surrender. I totally so speechless please. I stupidly thought that you would change and is really serious this time. Yea, I thought wrong again. Because you never did.
And touch your heart and tell me I dont care abt you. Touch your heart, tell me I don't care. Touch your heart tell me, did I ever did all this to you. And tell me. I know you don't like me to msg them, did I control and lose those friends for you? You tell me. I had never do this behind you!
Seriously, don't you find it too much? Don't you find it too over already? But you re still doing it! How great. Blame me for doubt you. Do you see now, what cause the doubt? Because you are doing this behind me, every now and then? So cool right? I so stupidly believe in whatever you said. When its all broken promises and lies.
How stupid and dumb can I get?
Huijing you had enough, really enough. Stop trying and trying to believe and trying wait and control. Yes you didn't want to let go of all this, because its been so much, been through so much tgt. And its going end like this?! How are you suppose to end something that mean to you so much, and let go of everything that was been through?

2010-11-21T07:48:00.000-08:00

Time Check. : 21Nov. 11:48pm.
Its going be bedtime sooon! Sleep huijing sleep. You can de. :D
Okay, I can't stand this manxz. Please don't ask me if I am fine anymore. :/ Because obvious I am not. Nvm. Just don't.. I am sorry..
Days suck a lot. All those are just lies.. Nvmnvm.

Thankyou my dearest Love, a million for everything you did for me! <3
And thankyou my dearest bestestfriend! <3 We re both random. :p please meeet me sooon! I miss you so much please! Let's go somewhere to let out everything tgt! <3
And you, my dearest friend.. I still have a little hope in you. If you want me give up so much, say it in my face. And I will do my best, since you want it this way. You mean something special to me.. I swear. Everything will make me remind of you.

2010-11-20T07:05:00.001-08:00

Time Check. : 20Nov. 11:11pm.
Its 11:11! <3 I wish I wish, everyone will get better, including me. I wish things was much easier for me.. I wish you are the one.
Hahaa. Its just wish.
I wonder why do everyone heart contain jealousy, love and fear.? That make life harder. But I guess this is just how life is. You need to work hard to get what you want. You need to believe. You need to trust. You need to let go and go w the flow.
Hahaa, I blamed myself for being weak. Myself..

I hope Jiejie ( T ) is fine. I know its tough. Because I feel you. Just hope things will turn out fine. And less tears and frown for us. :D
And hope Ahy is getting better. Don't worry! I feel you tooo. :D because you really treasure it, that's why. Don't think too much. Will turn out perfectly sooon. Smile. :D
And to myself. Please be content. And please be strong. Control. Hide behind the curtain. The storm will be over soon. I hope..